In love with you

Chapter 4

May .. wh..at ? I asked my dear daughter who stood on her grounds looking angrily at me   ,

I don't  want to go without daddy ,  Daddy loves me and if I leave he wouldn't  love me anymore .

May , my dear listen , I am your mom and i love you so much, so as yiur dad too but we need to go , just the two of us   .

We will be happy,  I promise.  I  whispered to her lightly touching her cheek when May gruffly moved away from me  ,

I had no idea where did this rebellious behaviour  came from , especially to my sweet little four year old daughter   ,

May stop being rude to your mommy, I am sorry okay ? I don't  want to leave you alo-

And I don't  want to go with you , I want to stay with my daddy, May cried out looking at me with teary eyes .

We will go and visit him in the office before we leave,  I promise . Daddy is just busy , and when he is done with work he will  come find us ,

No I don't  want to , May cried wiping her tears with her fists , i didn't  know what to do   but to hug her tightly when May pushed me back  making me look at her with a raised eyebrow .

" I want my daddy ,"  Don't  you want me anymore ?? I asked her when she pushed her raised shoulders down ,

Daddy said he will take me out today , And I promised we will bake a cake together  remember?

I don't  want cakes anymore mommy, I want my daddy ,

Sighing, I stood up and took her hand on mine and took her to her room where she wanted to be ,

As I opened the door ,May passed me and went inside only to burst into tears when she entered ,

What happened darling ? I ask confused ,

Where are my things  , mommy? And my dolls,   she ran to her closet and opened it only to throw her shoes on the floor pulling out a tantrum .

May !! I scolded her angrily, she is trying to get on my nerves  and i do not like when I scold her  but she is pushing me to do so ,

I hate you !! She spit out making me stunned for a moment as i looked at her teary face ,

" what has gotten into her ?"

Honey , what's  wrong ? I asked bending  eye level with her.

I want my things back and my pretty room, and my toys and eveeuthing that's  mine ,

I will buy you new ones , I promise.

No you wouldn't  , you do not work  like my  daddy . She frizzled, 

Who taught you to speak to me like this May ? That's  not a good way to speak to yiur mom or any other person , it's  rude and disrespectful. 

Daddy says I should say what I want ! And I don't  want to leave him , he buys me dolls and you always sit at the house waiting for me and him everyday. 

" You won't  buy me anything, "

My heart ached too much hearing her words , I have no idea who was feeding her all these words , I know separation and divorce can make a child go all hell crazy but hearing May saying all these words which were hundred percent the whole truth about my life made me feel like a joke  ,

I am a clown of my own body , my own life and I had no idea about it until my dear daughter put some senses into my head , I don't  blame her ,

She is a smart kid ,and whatever  she says makes me devastated  , I stiffled some tears that wanted to break out loudly out of me and pulled myslef together and swallowed the pain  ,