Gone!

ten

Both were sitting there. Looking at the beautiful sight.

"It feels the same. Just like last year.you don't know how happy I'm right now " jeongin told.

" Why not jeongin. I'm feeling same. It's like a dream"

" Hyung. That saying was right!!!!
I think we gonna last together for a long long time" younger said giggling happily.

Hyunjin looked in to his bright eyes. A galaxy shining inside it.

You're so precious

Suddenly jeongin seemed to be awkward.

Should I do it? I planned to do it today.
Today.
The first snow fall. Should I confess him??'

"Hyung!!"
"Jeongin!!"

Both spoke at the same time. And both started to laugh.

" You go first " hyunjin said chuckling.

" No no. Hyung go first" jeongin said looking down fidgeting with his fingers.

" Really??"
Hyunjin let out a long breath. A stressed one.

" Look.
Jeongin.
I don't wanna ruin the moment.
But... I just need to tell you this. I think it'll be a relief" he said in a unreadable tone and expression.

"Yes go on"
A bad feeling already started to cover jeongin.

" Well just a moment ago,seungmin came here to confesse me. He said he like me"
hyunjin's eyes looked so... pathetic??

Jeongin was already feeling dizzy. All his imaginations, dreams started to break down in to pieces falling on the ground.

"But luckily you came right then"

Luckily?? What you mean by that hung?? You must be so sad that I ruined your moment!!! 
You must've been hating me a second ago!!!!

His inner cheek suffered from biting himself, to stop breaking down infront of older.
Jeongin stayed silent.
Letting a word out means his whole soul will burst out now .

Hyunjin looked in to his eyes.
"Jeongin. What you think??"

" What hyung??" He replied holding back. Looking far away. Hiding trary eyes.
It's so hard. I want to run away. I want to cry'

"What's your opinion. Do you think I should date him. Do you like it??
'Jeongin please say no!!'

" Ahh.  Mm.  I'm so. H.. happy for... You.. hung..". ?!????!??

Hyunjin eyes looked at his face in a disbelief.
"Are you really meaning it. You ok with it??"

" W h ..? What?? Why not hung?? You both will be.... A . Good.. coup..
a good pair!!"
A fake awkward smile covered all his face.

"Really??" Hyunjin sounded Soo broken????

whY hung sounds sad. He's sad that I'm not excited enough??
Or does he wants me to be jealous right now??
Hyunjin kept looking at his eyes, in to deeper, trying to figure out something.

Jeongin felt so lost. Helpless.

What you want me to say hyung. That I'm Soo happy. I'm wishing you luck??? I'm excited????
If I missed that second before, I've already confessed you!!!
Just to be embrassed.
What a joke . I feel so pathetic.
I feel pathetic for my one sided love.
My fool mind kept imagining you always act like you cared me.. more than a brother.. more than a friend..
Like a lover .

But now...
Here you asking me to praise that someone confessed you. Am I just a time filler for you???"

I can't do it more. Tears started to stream all over face. His overwhelmed mind was all ruined by now. The fresh snow just started to cover every inch was long gone melted away .

And hyunjin's eyes were all widened. Surprised. Sad. Happy. Disbelief.

Just like he heard everything I said just now..

Wait ...

No.......

"Everything you told now. Was you serious????"

A tear formed. Fell along hyunjin's precious check.