Make Me Fantasize [ Noah x Cody ]

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No matter what Noah wished, it could not reach his grasp. Not like he wished for much, though he did have his daydreams of being a rich bitch, the affordability of anything he could ever think of.

What was in his grasp always seemed to fight back, overpowering him and leaving him.

So sappy, he thought.
But he really couldn't help it.

The airport.
How long has it even been?
How long has it been since the days began counting down? The days he waited only to watch Cody leave him, under the odd spell his parents had on him. A malicious spell, one who shouldn't stop the younger one from leaving a life he would enjoy more than what he used to have.

But things always end, right? Noah never had anything so wonderful come to his life, and it hit him hard to think about.
Cody has been the light of his days.

"...please have your boarding pass and identification ready..."

why has time gone by so quick...?

"I guess that's my flight. Um... I'm very sorry, Noah. I know my parents shouldn't have such control over me-..."

They shouldn't, Noah thought.
But not like he would ever force Cody to stay, not with how afraid he seemed of his parents tracking him down and doing honestly who knows what.
Only Cody would know.

They've been together for a pretty good time, but Noah still doesn't know everything about his boyfriend.

He really wished things could go better.

"Hey, don't blame yourself, okay? Just... take care of yourself, okay...?"

Noah felt like his throat had tightened, words could barely crawl out of his throat, he wanted to cry but his dignity really wouldn't let him.
He hated it. He felt uncomfortable showing such vulnerable emotions, but yet he's been so vulnerable with Cody ever since their relationship bloomed.
How ironic.

Cody smiled weakly, a fond look overcasting his face.
Noah's eyes looked elsewhere.

A hug grounded him back to his inner feelings, a hug stabbing so sharp into his body. It hurt, and he hated it. Sometimes he wondered if Cody would be better off without him. After all, if Cody never came by here, wouldn't he have one less problem tugging him down? The problem being Noah's love, a love that only added onto Cody's worries about his parents.

those damn parents.

"I'm going to miss you, Noah. So much."

Noah caught the fact that Cody ignored answering question (which was more of a plead); a sharp tug on his heart at the thought that Cody couldn't promise taking care of himself.
But, how could he blame him? Be mad at him?
He couldn't.

With a shaky sigh, he shivered under Cody's warm embrace and with trembling hands he hugged him back.
How could he feel so much?
How can this little silly relationship mess with him so much?

He couldn't help it, he just couldn't.
All these weeks, months, with Cody. They've been a whole new experience for him. His feelings blossomed over time, perspective of life changing, longing for things he never had before.
Terrible.
So terrible.

How could he get out of it? But, deep down, he didn't want to get out.

Words could not escape his throat that burned the more he tried to speak, so he attempted to express himself with his actions and leaned his head down the slightest, planting a gentle small kiss on Cody's lips.

"I love you, Cody," he mustered, causing his lips to tremble a little, watery eyes threatening to overfill.

"I love you, too, Noah."

Brown eyes lovingly gazed at baby blues.
Cody spoke again, "I won't let this be the end. Okay? I'll be back. I'll try my best, I'll be here, again."

Noah did not exactly know what Cody had planned in his head, what he could mean by that promise, but he could only hold on to that small hope that he will be able to wake up with his boyfriend in his arms again and again.
Although his eyes screamed at him to let himself cry, burning and pink, Noah only gave a weary soft smile and planted a kiss on Cody's cheek.
"Let's hope so."