Until We Meet Again

2.

A few days after the Nick incident, I am in my kitchen, in my small apartment, cooking some vegetables with curry when the doorbell rings.

I immediately open the door for James to come in, knowing he was bound to show up any minute now.

We planned this little dinner a week ago, when I came over to his to watch a football match.

My relationship with food has gotten better over the years, and even though my therapist said it's always gonna be here I'm trying my best to ignore it.

Watching football is normally something I wouldn't ever do, but I'm making a lot of efforts and trying to understand what my partner likes. I still haven't really figured out how following a ball on a field can be entertaining, but as I said, I'm making efforts.

Just like I did with Nick.

Why does his name keep popping up in my head, now?

"Hi baby." James says, walking in and taking his shoes off halfway through my place.

He comes to greet me by giving me a swift kiss, and leaves the kitchen rather quickly, not really interested in what I'm cooking.

James likes pretty much anything I cook, if I'm honest, and it feels nice to be appreciated for the things I do for him.

From the kitchen, I hear him turn the tv on and put on some random football match.

"James!" I yell at him and I hear him chuckle. He definitely knows what's coming.

We said we'd have a movie night, I was planning on making him watch The Truman Show as he's never seen it.

"It's almost over," he yells back before rushing to the kitchen, joining me and giving me another kiss. "I promise it'll be over in thirty minutes."

"Yeah," I tell him rolling my eyes before I get everything prepared for us to eat, and as if on cue, as soon as I'm done, my phone dings.

It's an instagram notification.

@taoxu
charlotte u will never guess who's on the sports channel rn heeeeelp

@charliespring
who? timothee chalamet? harry styles?

@taoxu
no actually way less hot than them...
but 'you know who' is on tv

As soon as i read the text, i feel this weird thing in my stomach. Close to butterflies, but also anxiety.

I know I cannot change the channel because James is watching TV right now, and he would most probably kill me if I ever tried to turn my television off, let alone change the channel to see my ex talking about something I don't give two shits about. But I'm also extremely curious, I want to know what he's doing and what he's saying.

Being a famous rugby player has always been his life goal, and if he's finally popular enough to be on TV, then I'm happy for him.

@charliespring
huh? what does this have to do with me??

I try to act as oblivious as possible to it, mainly to keep myself from freaking out.

I do not care.

Okay yes, I do care, but just because I'm really proud of him. I need to know more.

@charliespring
wait what is he talking about ??

@taoxu
rugby duh what else would he be
talking about u dumbass?