Hey Beautiful (Eddie X Fem Reader)

She's All I Wanna Be (Angst)

I recommend listening to some Tate McRae while reading this or just before, especially 'she's all i wanna be' which gave me inspiration for this chapter. 

⚠️Content Warning⚠️: Body image issues.

If there is any that I haven't included that you think I should add then please let me know.

I entered the cafeteria and looked around the room looking for Eddie. Were not actually official. Hell, i'm not sure if we're even anything. We just have the same taste in music and I buy from him every so often. He invites me over some time and get high, partake in heavy make-out sessions but that it.

You want the girl with the small waist

And the perfect smile

I spotted him talking to some cheerleader at his usual table. She was nodding her head listening to him speak, twisting her hair. He spotted me and called me over. He ushers her away. 

Someone who's out every week day

In her dad's new car

"What was that about?" you question him. "Oh she was just asking if I wanted to come to a party this week but told her I had plans with you".

You tell me I shouldn't stress out

Say it's not that hard

I slam my fist down on the table, everyone looking at me. "You expected me to believe that" I shout at him. 

But I just got a feelin'
This'll leave an ugly scar

I try to storm off but he grabs your wrist. "Please just meet me in the woods after school?" he asks. I nod and storm off. 

If you say she's nothing to worry about
Then why'd you close your eyes when you said it out loud?

I met him in the woods after school but there's that cheerleading slut again walking away. "Eddie, what do you actually see in her" I shout and then run away. Not turning back

Stupid boy makin' me so sad
Didn't think you could change this fast

I ran all the way home, tears streaming down my face. He's my fuck around, my weed dealer. Why the fuck did I care about him so much. 

She's got everything that I don't have
How could I ever compete with that?

I sat in your room in silence. Just breathing. Nobody was home. I lay on top of my bed for a while before I heard a knock at my front door.

I know you'll go and change your mind

One day wake up and be bored with mine

You walk down stairs, the knocking getting louder. "Please i'm sorry, it's you, princess, I only want you". Eddie. The Eddie what was breaking my heart over and over again. 

She's got everything that I don't have

And she's all I wanna be

All I wanna be so bad

So bad

I open the door and his eyes winded. He could tell that I had been crying. I let him in. Why? Because I was lonely and had nothing else to do. 

She's got everything that I don't have, mm

You want someone you can show off

"You've been crying?" he questions. All I do is nod. At the moment in time, I am just empty. I even forget that I've let him in and just wander back upstairs with him trailing behind me.

Whenever you go out

She'll wear a tight mini black dress

With all her friends around

You sit on the bed. Trying not to cry again. He comes and sits down next to you. You go numb for a while while he talks to you. You take nothing in and just let him talk.

If you say she's nothing to worry about

Then why'd you close your eyes when you said it out loud?

Stupid boy makin' me so sad

You snap back to reality and you notice him start to cry, causing you to start crying again. 

Stupid boy makin' me so sad
Didn't think it would hurt this bad

"Please, I just want you" Eddie begs.

She's got everything that I don't have

How could I ever compete with that?

I know you'll go and change your mind

One day wake up and be bored with mine

You cry into his arms, him not releasing that it's him that's hurting you but you wanted him, you wanted him that bad that you'll be his girl even though you know that cheerleading slut will get to him and cause him to cheat. 

She's got everything that I don't have

And she's all I wanna be

All I wanna be so bad

All I wanna be so bad

She's got everything that I don't have

And she's all I wanna be

All I wanna be so bad

I've got to say I really enjoyed writing that. That is one of my favorite songs at the moment and its my first time writing Angst, I think it classes as angst. I used to write stories based on songs years ago and it's where most of my inspiration comes from sometimes. Don't forget to leave a vote and leave any feedback :)