Not The End

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"Love is difficult to define, difficult to measure, and difficult to understand."
- a person with common sense

I really don't get what people meant by it at first listen. Oh how the table has turned now that I'm having an actual experience about it.

It is something unknown yet will almost always make it's presence known to me for the most part.

It is that excited feeling I get when we have the tiniest bit of physical contact.

The fluttering feeling in my stomach in his presence I crave for.

And the heartbreak when the reflection in mirror sent my dreams of being with him crashing down.

What I do know for a fact is that despite being something more monster than human, I too have my limits.

It's either I man up and confess or patiently wait and watch till these feelings eat me from the inside...

Life was good, at least for Binnie I guess. I do feel happy about my life with him but  these feelings really do complicat things.

And I thought only foolish 12 year olds experience these stupid feelings.

Then one day everything changed...

Me and Moonbin were playing a made up game in an abandoned site, making up little games together.

When I took a break to look out the window and monitor our surroundings.

Outside, as usual the evil sun was hiding behind a cloud of red, waiting and waiting for an opportunity to claim a live.

When I turned back, he is gone.

One of the shadowy creatures, once human was imitating my voice to lure him away.

I could hear it in the distance, and Moonbin's tiny footsteps following it.

I chased after him, the only thing I ever loved, and saw him just as he stepped out into the light.

He screamed as one of her hands began to melt in the light and I knew what I had ot do.

I grabbed him and pulled him back inside using my body to shield him from the horrible rays.

As I wept over him, my tears stopped his body from melting any further, but my body
continued to fall apart.

Ignoring the white hot pain of the sun frying every inch of my skin, still trying to plaster on a fake smile, desperately trying to not cry.

I would hate for him to remember our last moment together as such a sad one.

I knew it was too late for me.

"Bin... please live a good life without me, and do remember that I will love you.. forever and always. Farewell" I said in a gruff voice as I felt my throat began to close up.

Not entirely sure if it was from the sun or the thought of leaving my precious Binnie.

The last thing I saw before my eyes melted out of its sockets was looking at me with watery eyes.

Oh please!! don't make it harder than it already is...

With much hesitation I took off towards the woods, running mindlessly . Once I transformed I would not want to end up hurting him.

I run until my legs melted away and could run no more.

I stared at the research facility, now a tiny dot sitting on the horizon. The place I had spent centuries in, the place which holds such bittersweet memories.

Who would accompany her till her final day? how would she cope?

Her and her future without me was all I could think off as I melted into a pool of white liquid.

All our memories togethers played in my head like a movie. The first time I've met him... how he's changed me in ways unimaginable... and most importantly the immesurable depth of my love for him.

I screamed a final time, in agony, in heartbreak, in mourning for the happiness I had finally found and would now lose.