15:22, july 14th
we strolling home in groups in the cyan skies; the lack of clouds saturating the blue. the heat is burning the bottom of my jordan kicks, all our faces sweating oily liquid like sex.
'okay so who coming out tonight?'
lorelei questions, holding hands with jose who was a little shorter than her.
'we all are aint we?'
he answers,
'you coming mar? okorie?'
'yeah man i got some weed for y'all too'
márcio eases, chewing his gum.
'only if six comes..'
oak replies, making me raise a brow.
'i'll be there. i'll do anything for my fans'
i mess around kicking a jagged rock on my toes.
'cool.'
he smiles making me bite my cheek all curious.
'damn. ok so sevey, you gonna come to mine and we'll meet y'all at 5 round mar's block.'
we arrive at lei's house which is a beautiful raspberry sorbet colour.
it's doors and shutters resemble watermelon rinds.
sitting on her daybed she throws me some navy dress and a jacket to cover up once the sunsets.
'girl what okorie said earlier was fucking weird.'
lei slipped into a floral mini dress.
'i know.. i wonder why he be actin like this'
'he likes you fo sure'
i fight the smile, but stop once i think of xavier,
'i feel fucking bad L.'
'why?'
she watches as my expression emits a concerning look towards her,
'oh wait. eloíse.'
ive always thought ísa was a slut.
shit, i dont mean to be abrupt, but she always be poking her ass into another boys crotch from my understanding.
lorelei hates her because the boy she tries it with is usually not interested or in a relationship.
and ive observed that usually men have a hard time saying no to things they are uncomfortable with, which i realise how some girls manipulate them. cough cough eloísa.
she looks back at me in a facetious manner.
'i dont like the idea of this, i dont think boys is my thing... it makes me feel like im a whore or sum shit..'
i let out a laugh and fall back on her bed.
'i never want to grow up!'
i bury my head into her pillow as if i would sink into my desire, my father and me again at the tarr park; the burning rubber against my cheek as a result of me falling face first. and his sobered giggle.
'you should just talk to oak and who knows, but maybe he will grow on you.'
she clenches through the bobby pin in her pursed lips, pinning up her ponytail.
'isnt that a bit hypocritical?'
'the fuck do you mean babe?'
'you know.. talking to a boy whos dating a girl; who we hate for doing the same thing?'
'ohh! well the bitch can get what she deserves.'
i tour my eyes around her room, and realise how much it resembles mine. however the half open shutter reveals views of the ocean, the citrus cart that sells down by the port boarders because the sheltered market denied the room of one more stall.
it was time for us to join the rest of the puzzle at mar's corner.
halfway through the path lei grabbed my hand and shot me a uplifting glimmer, which i returned in glee. i live for the silence like this, her white chucks stopping the friction from releasing her down the stoneground hill in gripping motions, and my red thunders copycatting her strides.
'what do you think about xavier?'
i request her approval subtly, trying not to subliminally hint to my growing crush.
'girl, i dont give a fuck'
she rolls her eyes and we both simper,
'yeah, yeah me either.. is he coming tho for real?'
'probably'
17:00
'hey seven'
okorie walks over to me as we meet at the end of márcio's street, and lei unlinks my hand and upturns her eyebrows.
'hi-'
'your hair looks cool.'
i was interupted by oak's suprisingly nice offering,
'oh.. thanks!'
i smiled with pearls and turned to look at lei as we giggled and i pulled oak to walk next to me infront.
'yeah so what you think about smoking weed?'
he asks abruptly to me.
'uhm. ive never smoked before'
he smirked and i unsurely bit the inside of my cheek.
'thats cool. i can show you.'
'hmm, im good.'
i hum and my head falls on his shoulder as we walk.
'you and jasper are a thing?'
he asks after he clears his throat.
'hell nah...i swear i told you the other day dumb ass'
i giggled and he groaned hiding his blush,
'im joking man shut up'
we tied our eyes together and he looked around the features of my face until our smiles faded.
'im not talking to anyone or anything.'
he spoke directly but then turned around as márcio and theo yelled some random shit towards us.
'i didnt ask you that..'
i concerned towards him and he returns with a sneer,
'but you thinking it.'
i scoffed at his bravery to put on an infalted ego,
i really wasn't
