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Chapter Five

•Y/N's pov:
Everyone left Luz's house, I stayed in the back of the group as everyone talked about their experiences in Bonesborough. Except, I had no stories. Just living in the human realm was enough, but based off of their stories, it made me understand why Luz liked the place so much. Amity and Luz lead the way to the park closest to Luz's house, though I guess Amity wasn't really happy, she was just holding Luz's hand. Gus and Willow talked to each other about missing their families. Hunter didn't say much on the other hand, but jumped into a conversation whenever he was spoken to.
I didn't like this feeling, this feeling of loneliness. I hadn't seen Luz in months, and she has a new life, new friends. A life I felt like I wasn't supposed to be in. Debating on just walking back to Luz's house to grab my things, I pushed that thought aside once Gus looked back to see me with my hands in my hoodie pockets. He slows his walk to stay back with me. Willow and Hunter continue their talk to each other, not quite noticing Gus's absence.
"What's wrong Y/N? You look sad." Gus asks, I force a chuckle and shrug my shoulders.
"I dunno. I guess I just feel left out? Luz has been gone for what feels like forever with brand new friends and doesn't even talk to me, doesn't let me spend the night in her room like when we were younger. I just feel like I don't quite belong in Luz's life anymore." I state, Gus grabs his chin and nods his head.
"I see...have you tried talking to her?" Gus asks, I nod my head.
"We did in the kitchen before we left...but I still have a weird feeling she's lying about something." I say to him, Gus shakes his head no.
"Luz would never lie to the people she cares about. Trust me." Gus says, only to walk a bit faster to catch up to the rest of the group.
   I let out a sigh, remembering what Luz said to me before we left her house.
"Y/N, what's wrong? Hunter came to tell me that you weren't feeling well?" Luz asked, I froze in my spot.
"Hunter told you that? Well, I guess he would talk to someone he actually knew and trusted." I mumbled, looking down at my shoes.
Footsteps is what follows, only to stop. I notice Luz's shoes right in front of mine, she picks my head up and looks at me. Luz looked at me with a worried expression, I let out a sigh.
"Luz, I just felt so lost without you here. And suddenly you come back with all these friends, friends that make you happy, happier than what I feel like I made you. You have a girlfriend, new friends, a new life! And then there's just me, standing in the background while my best friend leaves me for better people. I guess I just don't understand what happened. I'm sorry Luz." I stated, looking back down at the ground.
"Y/N, you are one of the best people I know. Just because I made new friends doesn't mean I'll leave you behind. It's just weird, being back. It's weird seeing how you've changed as well. I never thought I'd hurt you or mama the way I did by leaving. You don't need to be the one apologizing. I need to be the one. So, Y/N, I'm sorry." Luz told me, I felt a tear trickle down my face.
"Luz, just tell me. Will you be staying here after you figure everything out? I don't want you to leave again. It'll hurt me and Camila far too much." I said, looking back up at Luz.
"I...I can't promise you that. I need to go back to the demon realm to save Eda and King. I have no idea what'll happen when I do that, but I can promise I will come back. Just, don't give up on me just yet. Alright?" Luz asked, I just nodded my head.
"Thanks Luz. For always remembering me." I told her.
"Of course. Us weirdos hafta stick together anyway..." Luz mumbles the last part and grabs my hand. Leading me towards the living room.
I remember feeling my face flush once Luz held my hand. And as much as I trusted Luz, something told me she was holding something in.
I kick a rock and bump into someone. I look up and realize I bumped into Hunter. Looking around my surroundings, I realize we're at the park already. Already getting weird stares, I pop up my hood to cover up my face. I notice an empty swing and walk over to it. Sitting down I begin to kick my legs back and forth, beginning to go higher and higher with each swift kick.
I close my eyes and just swing, drowning out the noise from the children and Luz and her friends around me. I let go of the chains and just jump, planning on landing on my feet. Only to feel a pair of arms grab me before I hit the ground. Opening my eyes, I look up to see Hunter looking down at me, a frown on his face. He looks slightly worried.
"Why would you jump? What type of human thing are you doing?" Hunter asks, looking down at me.
I let out a sigh, looking around to see everyone looking at us. I feel my face flush.
"Please put me down..." I mumble. Hunter lets out a
"Huh? Oh, sorry." before putting me safely on the ground.
Feeling wind nip at my ears I realize my hood came off. I let out an angry groan, and push past Hunter and speed walk with my hands clenched together to try and find a place out of his, and everyone else's sight. My chest begins to feel a sharp pain, tears prick at my eyes. I find a safe place in the woods nearby, climbing up a tree. My hands begin to shake and I try my best to hang onto the branches as best as I can. When I get to my desired height, I sit on a big branch that will support my body weight.
I look down at the ground, and listen to the sounds around me as I try to steady my breathing.
'It'll be okay Y/N. They were just staring at Hunters ears. But those ears were connected to Hunter, who was holding me....so they were staring at both of us. What if they thought I was some freak? What if they laughed at me once I left? Is Luz even gonna look for me? What if they don't even notice I'm gone and just leave me here by myself? What if-'
"Y/N?! Where'd you go?" A voice asks, I look to my left to spot a blond boy looking for me, feet below me.
"You're worrying Luz. She says she's never seen you act this way? Are you in here?" Hunter asks, I shake my head no.
'I'm dead inside. I'm dead inside. I'm dead inside.' I think over and over. 'Am I even really here or is it just my body being here?' I wonder, beginning to tear up again.
Hearing my sniffles the blond looks up at the tree I'm in, his eyes wide and filled with sadness just by taking a glance at me. He lets out an exasperated sigh, beginning to climb the tree.
"Please leave me alone..." I whisper.
"How did you get up there so quickly? I'm surprised you didn't fall. Woah!" Hunter yells, losing his grip just a bit below me.
"Hunter!" I yell, reaching out to grab his hand.
I grab onto the trunk of the tree for support, only to realize Hunter has in fact not fallen to the ground. I grip his hand tighter and pull him up, my arm beginning to hurt. Hunter grabs onto a branch with his free hand and hoists himself up to a branch below me and to my right.
"Are you okay? Why would you climb this tree in the first place?!" I yell, bombarding him with questions.
Hunter looks down at the hand I was holding onto just a bit ago.
"I was trying to help...." Hunter states, looking up at me with a saddened face.
"Hunter...you could've gotten badly injured! What would've happened if you broke something? What would happen if we had to take you to the hospital? What about-" I begin, only to get cut off.
"What about you?! You've been constantly wallowing in your self pity ever since Luz got back! Why can't you just enjoy having her back? Why can't you just be happy to see her again instead of worrying about how she'll treat you? She's Luz, the Luz you became friends with! Yes, yes she's changed from a happy girl, and now she's just trying to be happy again. Can't you just be there for her as much as she needs to be there for you?" Hunter yells, I leave my mouth agape.
"I just don't understand....why I can't be happy." I mumble. This catches Hunter off guard.
"I...I don't understand either Y/N. But I'm sure having Luz back has made you feel at least a little better, yeah? I mean, she left a lot behind. In both realms. And you and Camila are probably one of her biggest regrets, just leaving you both behind. She's tried very hard to get back here, and she's happy she's back. She's happy. And as much as I hated Luz when I first met her, her happiness wore off on me, on a lot of people. So, just give her a chance, yeah? I think she deserves that much." Hunter explains, I nod my head and smile genuinely down at him.
"Thanks Hunter. I needed that." I state, Hunter blushes ever so slightly and looks back down at the ground.
"Truth or dare..." Hunter whispers.
"What?" I ask, only to hear him mumble.
"Truth or dare." Hunter states, a warm smile on his lips. I smile back.
"I think...dare this time." I say, nodding my head.
"I dare you to climb back down this tree and find Luz and everyone else to apologize. You need to give us all a fair chance. That's what Luz would do." Hunter says, I smile again. Nodding, I begin to climb down the tree, Hunter not too far behind me.