𝘊𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘉𝘦 𝘛𝘰𝘰 𝘓𝘰𝘶𝘥

chapter three

"cant be too proud, can't think i'm pretty.."
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tw:drinking, smoking

once we got to steve's house, i stretched, holding my head. the kids were staying too, which made sense. we don't want their parents killing us. we were all still a bit tipsy, and i think nancy brought more bottles. i'm definitely not going to be able to sleep tonight.

we all headed inside and nancy placed her bag on the table next to the sofa. eddie grabbed another bottle and popped it open before looking at everyone, he took a big sip before opening his mouth to speak. yup, he was definitely fucked up. he never gets sappy unless he's like really drunk or high, "i just wanted to say..i am very glad that i met rob and steve, and the kids of course. they accept me for who i am, and uh, nancy, jonathan, billy, all of your friends(besides jason and angela because they left after the fight), i don't know you guys much, but you guys are definitely cool" he slurred and everyone cheered.

steve played some music on his speaker. i didn't think we'd have another party at steve's, but i'm not complaining. i sat in the corner with a can in my hand as i watched everyone have fun, dancing and drinking.

my eyes landed on nancy. she has another can in her hand as she was dancing and talking with juliette. i smiled to myself, taking a sip of my can. i saw a figure walk towards me and looked up and saw max. she sat next to me, "i saw you staring" she said. yes, max was the only one who knew about my crush on nancy. "what? can you blame me? she's..perfect" i sighed, looking back at nancy, but i felt max's eyes on me.

"i know how you feel..falling for a straight girl, i mean" max said. ah yes, jane. though, max denies it, anyone with eyes can see how she looks at jane. "come on max, i know who you're talking about. you cant deny your feelings for jane forever, y'know" i place my hand on her shoulder. "and you can't keep your secret from steve forever" she shot back. "fair" i nodded, removing my hand from her shoulder.

"sorry, it's just hard.." she sighed, shaking her head. "i just..everytime i see her with mike, it's just..it hurts, ya know? like, she comes to me, telling me all her problems about their relationship, but then when she's with him, she's always.." she points to jane cuddling mike on the couch, "that" she looked back at me.

i nodded, "looks like she's in denial" i said and max looked at me. "what?" she asked. as i was about to speak, i saw jane suddenly bolt out of mikes lap and turned to look at him. everyone's attention was now on them. "i'm sorry, i- i can't" she said. "what do you mean you can't?" mike asked.

"i mean..i can't keep pretending that everything is okay when..it's not" jane sighed, "i just..you've been so distant lately.." she started, "i- i cant do this" she ran out of the room and everything went quiet.

i looked at max and nodded. she stood up and ran after jane. mike looked around before storming out the opposite way with will following him. "what a birthday.." i mumbled to myself and everyone else went back to what they were doing.

i looked over and saw nancy holding steve's hand as steve lead them upstairs. "i think i'm
gonna call it a night" i told eddie. he looked at me, "what's wrong?"

"nothing, i just think that i drank too much"  i lied and nodded. "okay, well i'm here if you need anything" he offered a smile and i nodded before walking to the guest room.

i plopped down onto the bed and sighed. i took my shoes off, laying down as i stared at the ceiling. i felt guilty and i don't know why.

i decided to shove my thoughts away for the night and get some sleep.
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"do they keep my around, so their flaws just seem silly?"
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hey! sorry for not updating and i know this isn't as long, this was kind of just a filler chapter. i haven't had motivation to write lately, so these update might be slow. i apologize in advance if they are. also, i know this song is about an overweight friend. but, i think i decided to use this song because, despite robin not being overweighted, she really relates to most of these lyrics. like, 'cant be too loud' she's afraid if she's too loud, people are just gonna shut her out, like how she felt like she was annoying nancy in volume one until they can to terms that they were indeed friends. she's also afraid of being who she is, the only person who knows is steve right? 'cant be too proud' she cant embrace herself for being a lesbian without being afraid of all the sneaky comments.

anyways, thanks for listening to the rant! i promise to make the next chapter longer :) i hope that everyone is having a good day/night!