Strong Back

28| Diamond's cut

I should find a nice guy that fits me, Terry said and I trust my gut feelings knowing it won't work with Justin. Nick told me enough of who or how their family is and I see it all for myself. I'm relieved that I never kissed him back but the times we have been together showed me a clear view of what I want. I don't want Justin but a guy who I will have fun with in or outside of the kitchen but with chemistry.

Grandma away says that a good man will stay and work out any differences but the bad one won't. He will make time for anyone else but you and when he finally get his ass kicked he would be back. Grandfather cheated all the time when he was married to grandma and the moment he got the chance to travel he left her and came here to New York where he got married again but still cheat in that woman with another. Once a cheater always a cheater. The moment the government caught up with him he was unable to travel again. He abandoned mummy here and she was the one who took care of him during his sick times. He begged for grandma's forgiveness and she gave him but not her heart, only the divorce papers which he signed. Mummy went through something different but I want my different that won't hurt me.

To hell with relationship, nothing lasts because people die everyday.

I walked into the clinic with tears in my eyes and not a care in the word. Each time it fills my eyes, blurring my sight, I just blink it away. The stares from strangers who end the moment I stare right back into their eyes like a challenge. That's until I feel something moving around my feet. I stiffened up wanting to scream but the second I look, I had to smile.

I laugh though my tears as a brown fur coated kitten rubs himself on me and I reach down and pick him up. It lay on my palms looking up at me but the moment my thumb run moves softly over its fur, soft purr fills my ears.

Getting seated, I knew getting attached to someone's animal won't help me so I put the kitten on the floor watching as it rubs itself on me again before leaving though a small opening by a door.

I was happy with the results Smoke's mother gave me of my vagina but had to remind me of my grandmother each time I hear the word sorry. Malaysia and had lunch and so did my security who I forced to eat more pizza from the two large boxes, they were surprised I ate so much.

Malaysia and I were at the spa for a while getting a bit of everything good. Just as we were waiting to get our nails dried perfectly I turn to see who was piercing a hole in my head and I ignore Justin's wife while covering my ears with my headphone. Not a minute too soon it was snatched off my head and thrown to the floor where it broke in pieces.

Standing there are the group of girls who had the nerve to embarrass me yesterday and I ignore them like destroying my belongings didn't faze me. It felt hurt since it was my hard earned money that brought it but I kept my cool, since I'm not in the mood for foolishness or have the time to do something destructive in this fine bougie establishment filled with gossiping rich women. Now I know why Malaysia was weary when my security told me that my grandmother made the appointment for this place.

We got lots of stares the moment we walked in and whispering of gossipers floods the place.

Next thing I know was my hair being dragged and my eye widened when I hear a sound in my neck from the force. Adrenaline rush was all it took for me to grab the person's arm and send my fist to her nose hearing it break in my ears. I blacked out and each person that touched me got something broken or bring knocked out. Screams filled my ears and tears filled my eyes as the last person that touched me because clear on my vision. Her arm was broken and the bone looked disfigured at her elbow.

"You're going to jail for this!" One screamed and I look at her.

"Guh nyam shit." I told her and turn, sitting where I was before but my nails were almost fine. Only a small smudge was on my thumb that looks like a design.