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"Trust your time, it can give you roses when you are expecting thorns" - Parul Nigam
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Alkina
"It's his loss" they told me.
To him, he didn't lose anything. It was just like every other day.
But me, I felt like I lost my whole world. I lost every kiss we ever shared, every hand I'd ever held.
I lost it all.
And worst of all, I had to walk around every day pretending to not care. Still loving him, needing him.
I hoped that he'll someday realize that the worst thing in life was losing me. Losing someone who loved him and gave the world to him.
And yet I couldn't help but miss the feeling. The feeling of him.
Our feet brushing against each other under the sheets in the middle of the night. Sighing his name against his shoulder. Slipping my fingers under his shirt to remind me of how lucky I got to be the one touching his skin.
Silly me, thinking you cared.
No matter how many times I thought about it, I just couldn't understand. I couldn't understand why.
It was eating me up. I thought I was going crazy.
It only hit me then. Our relationship.
What even were we?
Sometimes we were friends, sometimes we were more than friends, and sometimes, I was nothing more than a stranger to him.
One minute he was talking to me as if I was something special and the next minute he was talking to me as if I meant nothing to him.
One day he payed so much attention to me, the next day he almost completely ignored me.
The only thing I wished was him starting to make sense because I was bewildered.
Namjoon
I sighed, repeating myself for the 100th time to that shithead called Kim Taehyung.
"Did you finally understand everything?"
The boy was chewing on his lollipop with wide eyes, listening to me carefully.
That cursed lollipop.
"Yes. Yes, I did."
"Are you sure? I'm not going to repeat myself again." I said as I held his shoulders with both of my hands in the process of slowly losing my patience.
"Yes, I am. Don't worry." The man said, smiling widely.
Finally.
Instead of spending my free time at the studio or home, taking care of my bonsai, I had spent my free time, explaining my plan to him.
