Baddest

Chapter 23

I'm currently laying in my bed, in and out of sleep. My head is resting on Colson's chest and the thudding of his heart is the best soothing sound I've ever heard. If I could just listen to it every night, I'd never suffer from insomnia again. His arm is wrapped around me, he's so incredibly warm

"Hey Madison! I just had a quick qu- . oh! Woah, shit. Sorry!" The sudden opening of my bedroom door causes me to shriek. I look up and there stood Lindsay.

"Jesus, Lindsay! you scared me!" I pull at the blankets to make sure I'm covered. Not that she hasn't seen me naked. A story for another time.

"Well, I didn't think you'd be...occupied! That explains the rover outside though." Lindsay's trying to be serious, but I see her trying not to laugh at the situation we're in.

I feel Colson's chest vibrate; of course he's laughing.

"Hey. I'd get up and shake your hand but..." he gestures to me laying on him. "I'm kind of stuck."

Not to mention he's completely naked, we both are.
Lindsay laughs. "I see that. I don't think I want to see all of what's going on under that blanket. We met at the concert. sort of. I was the one that said her ex sucks in bed."

Ugh, now I'm mortified My face is turning bright red and I hide it against colson, who finds Lindsay hilarious right now.

"Lindsay! This is now public friggin' knowledge, could you not?"

"Yeah. we both know that will never happen. I have no filter." She waves me off and turns to leave. "Listen, I know you're Machine Gun Kelly, I've been a fan for years, but you and I will be discussing ground rules for dating my best friend. Got it?"

Colson holds me tighter and gives a small laugh. "Yes ma'am."

Lindsay leaves my bedroom and I groan. I'm not looking forward to her interrogation.

Colson pulls me over so I'm lying on top of him. "I like her, she's got your back."

I smile and nod. "She always has. You're in for quite the talk when it happens, I'm apologizing now."

Colson's fingers thread through my hair and he pulls me in for a kiss. It's soft, slow, I'm melting into him. The scariest thing about colson is that I can see myself really falling for him, which throws me into the possibility of rejection, which makes me feel so vulnerable. I've face rejection my whole entire life, but this just cuts me so much deeper to think about.
As scared as it makes me though, I can't stop kissing this man.

Our lip's part but he keeps me close. "You know I'd shut down for you."

I shut down for you
I go in, I dove in and drown you

My stomach twists in those familiar knots, my heart pounds rapidly against my chest. I'm sure he can feel it. If Lindsay wasn't home right now, I'd be begging him to take me. I press my lips to his, hoping my kiss will show him all of the things I'm too afraid to say. Our kiss is interrupted. My cellphone interrupts the silence of the room. I reach for it on the nearby nightstand. I peak and see it's my mother calling, my face twists in confusion.

"Mom?" I ask after accepting the call. We haven't spoken in weeks. Not since our argument on the phone.

"Yes, still alive. No thanks to you, Madison. I need you to come here. " She sounds agitated.

My eyes roll, since when did it become my job to make sure she stays alive? This is typical. I'm dirt beneath her shoe until I'm of some sort of use to her. "You don't need me for anything, I'm too much of an embarrassment. Remember?"

I can hear her scoff. " Madison, stop being so damn dramatic. It's important!"

Why do I feel the need to do as she says because she's my mother? She doesn't deserve my help in any capacity. " Fine. I'll be there in a bit. " I huff and hang up the phone before she can respond to me.