My Life My Love My Time -Book 3 MLMLMT Trilogy-

Bathroom

I walk into my old bathroom. It feels like home. I see the herbal essences in the shower, the vanilla lotion on my counter, and the drawer of random hair ties and products. This feels so much more like home than the TARDIS ever has. I love it with the Doctor in the TARDIS and the adventures. Then there is the pain that comes with it, the death, the leaving. I don't know how he has done it for so long. Everybody lives and everybody dies, but it hurts when they do die. It is painful and dread fills you. The first thought is to just not have people around, then you think of the loneliness.

"Ocrose hurry up we need to be going soon!" I hear the Doctor call from downstairs. I wash my face and lotion my hands. I then open the door and walk down the stairs. The Doctor holds out his arm to me and we walk through the kitchen. I see my Mum and stop.

"Mum are we all good now?" I ask and she nods.

"We are as close as Mother and Daughter." She says and I wrap her in a big hug. I then walk out with the Doctor. We walk towards the general direction of the invisible TARDIS. I sigh and walk into the door, seconds later the door is open and I am walking over to sit on the couch chair things in the console room. Before I reach the chair there are arms around my waist and then I am facing a tweed blazer. I nestle my head into his shoulder. He is so sweet and perfect, I mean his chin is a bit big but that is something I can live with. It is always good to visit home but not for so long that you forget about what your reality is. It is hard to find that fine line but once you do you know to never cross it and if you do you know there is no going back. I am happy to be back in my current surroundings, hugging the Doctor in the safety of the TARDIS, with nothing to worry about except the fact that at some point we do end. I don't know why or how but we do, I only know that because of River. River seems like a fixed point in time. No matter how much effort I put into the Doctor I know that seed is sown, the seed of River and marriage and me having to leave. I fear how the Doctor will decide. I fear what I will do after I have to leave. I should probably talk to Jack since I am fixing the way that I have screwed up.

"Doctor we should try to fix things with Jack." I say and he moves me out but is still holding my shoulders.

"What caused this?" He asks and I sigh.

"Listen, I know that you don't want to admit this and believe me I don't either but we need to. Eventually this is going to end-" I say and the Doctor interrupts me.

"How do you know that?"

"The way you look at River and the fact that you marry her with the face you have right now! Clear proof that I am going to be a distant memory in the near feature. I fixed things with Mom and I feel like I should be friends with Jack. I need a life outside of the TARDIS seeing as how River didn't know me. We need to fix things with everyone around." I say and the Doctor sighs. He pulls me close and kisses the top of my head.

"History can change." He says in an almost whisper.

"Not this time." I say and pull out of the hug.