i'm scared to love you |byler|

8.

"it's not my fault," mike said trying to be calm, but his face was turning red with anger and when they're angry they also cries, so tears were bringing their eyes.

will on the other hand, wasn't trying to keep composed, they were yelling. "how is it not your faul?"

"you honestly should know me better by now that my parents don't love me, i never had the correct ideology of love. my parents ignored me unless it was to shit on something i do or to make me feel useless." he quickly rubbed his eyes, and if someone asks? he's just tired.

"that's no excuse."

"i'm not giving excuses!" this time, mike yells, they couldn't stay calm. "look, i'm not trying to be an asshole, but, i know nothing about how love works, i never had it."

"you have nancy,"

"it-it's not the same, i never have parental love. your mom, she loves you. i can't say the same about mine."

"mike-"

"will, i'm so sorry," mike couldn't keep it in, they started crying. like full on crying, body shaking and everything. "i'm sorry please don't leave."

"i could never leave you." will replied, going to hug his lover.

mike tenses up a bit, but immediately melting into the hug.

"i don't like it when we fight," mike said after calming down. "it's stupid, but i feel like you'll leave me after and i'll be alone."

"i could never leave you." will said.

"promise?"

"promise."

after that happened, the two decided to get some ice cream. it wasn't necessarily a date, but just hanging out.

"hey will," mike says, thinking carefully about what to say next. "you- you mean a lot to me."

"you mean a lot to me too."

they both smiled, mike taking wills hand and intertwining their fingers together. both of them feeling the electricity that they were always told that would happen. mike found it scary, wanting to pull away, but then will rubbed his thumb against mikes hand, making butterflies erupt in their stomach and turning their face red.

"you don't have to be scared," will said, looking into mikes chocolate brown eyes, ones that's seen lots of pain, but you could still get lost in them.

"i know," mike said, looking into wills forest green eyes. they remind you of trees and grass, they remind you of summer when you're outside with your friends, maybe camping in the woods, being teenagers and having fun. "it's just, it's all new to me and i want this to work out."

"then we'll make it work." will said, using their free hand and carresing mikes sharp jawline, tightening their grip on the hand holding mikes.

maybe, just maybe, mike doesn't have to be like his parents. he can try love and maybe it'll work out. this time, mike doesn't think before he speaks, it just rolls of his tongue smoothly.

"will, i love you," mike realised what they said and started to panic, letting go of the others hand. "i mean- uh, shit. uh-"

"mike, calm down. i love you too." will says with complete honesty in their voice.

instead of this making mike calm down, they panic harder. what if will doesn't mean it? what if this is all a joke?

"i- i need to go home." mike says and rushes out of scoops ahoy.

mike: lucas, i know that you have drama about dustin and their whatever trevor is but this is urgent!

lucas: i'm with steve right now, wanna come to steve's house? max is also there.

mike: yeah, sure. wait why is max there?

lucas: advice to ask out el.

mike: holy shit, i knew that she likes them. i'm omw to steve's rn.

here's some byler cause ik i've kinda focused of trustin but yeah anyway kinda having the urge to make a trustin fic /hj