butterflies. | Ashtray X Fem

35.| let me comfort you.

35.| let me comfort you.

i had stepped out of the house for a few hours while ashtray was asleep, and im low-key kind of disappointed that he didn't message me asking me where i had gone or anything, im walking back to the house right now after smoking some weed with rue since she can't celebrate my birthday tomorrow since she's grounded, leslie found out she's been actually skipping her meetings. i don't know how to feel, ashtray asked me to be with him yesterday. but now it's like he doesn't even care anymore, i mean i haven't seen him since last night and maybe he's just trying to be less overprotective... i don't know... i finally make it to the house and open the door fez no longer in the house. it was completely quiet and that bothered me, i slowly walk towards ashtray's room and open the door, when i opened it he had been leaning over, as soon as he saw me he looked away wiping his face.

"baby?" i question, this was my first time ever giving ashtray a title.

"what's wrong?" i rush over and sit next to him holding one of his hands.

"please talk to me.." i turn his face slowly and gently. he slowly turned to look at me his eyes extremely watery.

"just promise me something." he sniffles looking me in my eyes and i cant focus on one of his so i continue to look back and forth at both of them.

"anything." i place my hand on his face.

"caye. im just so fucking scared to lose you." a tear falls from his eyes.

"baby.." i pull him in for a hug and hold him tightly.

"im not enough, ill never be, i want you to find better but you are my better so im not willing to give you up.. and ive done so much fucked up shit and i find it so fucking hard to believe you actually seriously want me and your not doing this shit to break my heart, and no i don't think that's the type of person you are it's jus- it's just i feel like ive pushed you to limits..limits that aren't you, caye im just trynna say you deserve so much better." ashtray was just going on and on, i didn't know he had been holding this shit in for so long.

"baby, i don't want anyone but you, ash you are my better and always will be, you changed my life for the worse and better, and everything you have done for me during this little ass time has made up for all the fucked up shit, so i don't want to hear this from you again, your my perfect, and baby im so fucking happy to say your mine." i kiss his lips gently and he kisses mine back.

"there's no fucking way im leaving you here to be stuck, let's go do something." i grab both of his hands and stand up in front of him as he sits down. he pulls my hands away grabbing my hips.

"im so fucking in love with you." ashtray bites his lips looking at me.

"i love you." i sway side to side getting nervous.

"can we just do a quick one.." he asks looking me dead in my eyes.

"mhm." i bite my lip slowly and next thing you know he stands up swinging me around and laying me on the bed, pinning my hands above my head.

*time skip*

me and ashtray had both been breathing heavily. my head resting on his bare chest, he ran his hands through my hair several times. then fez walked in.

"fuck bro..." fez groans immediately turning around. me and ashtray look at eachother and smile. i roll off of ashtray and cover my body with the blanket as ashtray just covers his bottom half. he puts his hands behind his head.

" i was just making sure you were back home caye." fez sighs turning around again.

"mhm." i smile finding it hilarious.