Freedom

Life changing

Today I really forgot that i have no rooms to worship since yesterday, it's time to wore the uniform my body suggest me as that uniform could prevent me from the cold breeze, but I refused it, just gone out of my fort visited to slaves' village, to find if there is a room to worship. my chief of different, steps behind me till pass the entrance after that he started to put his steps parallel to me. The surroundings looked very calmly, but there is still a sound, continuously follows us. My chief doesn't know that, it was my hungry song. "I can't cure your hungry" he said, as he hasn't bring ingredients to cook, "It's ok" I said to satisfy him, but...
I still have a bigger hunger as a hungry mosquito have, which have the courage of biting an elephant. Finally I thought that I found a calm place which seemed to be a god room, by it's outer decorations.
  
The thing which held after it, was life changing
I entered into it, surprisingly It's hard to find calm there, it seemed to be very different from my god room, I pray calm, they prayed loudly, I pray with a candle, they pray  with a small torch, I was connecting to god with an old shoe, they were connecting to god with flowers, but both of them prayed for same, freedom. There freedom can be given by me, so why god didn't make me to do that, the candle that I brought with me is wasted with out given to the god, I returned to the street, and walked through, wide houses, on the both sides, hardly working people on the fields for their young ones make that place smelling so good, I loved all things held in the surroundings, finally I reached the back side of the fort, that this street brings me straightly, there, we placed the dumping area, Now I have the chance to see what's held inside the fort, ohh, it's seems to be that 4 persons are cleaning...... the bad smelling wasted food by...... It's the most embarrassing thing that a man could feel, that 4 prisoners of under aged did that by their mouth**. after seeing this my chief got vomiting, but I did not, The same hungry which I have proved that it is fair, when my apple dipped curry started to eaten by one of them, Now I found the reason for that bad smell, as the bad smell started to reduce but I still have inconvenience another time only by me.
I started to return back through the particular street, back to the village, On my way to a unknown destination, I saw that god room again, He is not the god that I worship, eventually, all day of hunger put me dizziness, I fell on the floor, after I didn't know what's held there, after I get out from dizziness, "Most of the people helped you to cure, except one, someone involved to steal your candle and took off, I can't to stop that at this typical time", chief said. I got a true laugh in me after 26 years, "for a wasted candle" I was still staying in a great banyan tree, It's already got dark, suddenly a light, splashed just a few yards away from me, seemed to be that a candle is fueling for a spark, and a girl is used it to cook, my chief of different said, is she cooking with a candle. I laughed again for something else.
In between this, when I checked my pocket, which kept my candle before, I also kept 5 pounds, now it is not there, I laughed again for my stupidity of laughing, "that person also took my money chief" I scolded him. "Thank you" she said, when giving that 5 pounds, so she is, who took my candle for cooking. I was happy about her this character, "I don't want that 5 pounds you have it for... for... this, can..... you give me some food..food" she didn't understand my language, as she is from another mother. Luckily my chief can speak her mother's language lightly, so I ask him, to ask her some food for that money. Chief told "this food that she made is a tribute for god so she should give this whole to god". For the first time, I had temper on gods. But the chief asked again but she refused it although I was in a bad condition.
"It's enough, she isn't not good," I decided, is she doesn't have a little bit of kindness on hungry people, I finally found that her god is very disloyal and I am started to smile, The candle is fully finished, as she forgot it to turnoff after completing the cooking activity, after that I thought to brought the excess candle wax to my god room, as It needed a god room for sanctification so I collected the excess candle wax without collapse it, bringing it to the fort.
There my chief started his carrier after a one day leave. Before wearing my uniform, peon seems to be eagerly waiting to tell the problems of today's. "The bad smell is reduced only by god's grace." This remained me the last night. There is only one way that I can visit from two ways since now. One is to laughs for god and doing all my good things only for god, and stays in the jail and next laughs for my real me and stays in the freedom.