In the Shadows - DIVERGENT HIGH

Chapter 5

"Christina wait!"
"What Beatrice?"
"It's not me who's good at everything, it's you. I have always had time for imagination because there was never anyone there of me and I am not trying to get your sympathy, I just I don't know. You did just as much as me, you came up with the tune in music and you acted phenomenally in English. My last school was really prestigious so I seem to be ahead of everyone but I am really ordinary. Just a boring old stiff with a pointless skill for imagination."
By this stage, Christina had already turned around and was looking at me and when I met her eyes, they softened a little.
"Hey it's ok. Everyone has a place in this world, they just have to find it. Do you want to sit with us at lunch, just for today, not permanently but just, well you know. I'll introduce you to everyone."
"Er yeah. Thanks Christina." I say, trying to keep casual when inside I am being sliced apart. Part of me longs to go with her and become Dauntless like I was aiming for but the other half, the overwhelming half, feels as though I don't belong with them and I can't belong.

Chemistry bores on with the odd amusement of a "queek queez" and my heart beats faster as each second ticks by. At last I can't stand it anymore but I still wait until the bell goes because I don't want to skive. As soon as I hear it's first vibration, I am out if the classroom, going nowhere in particular.

Nothing seems to matter anymore. I am nit hungry, I don't want to associate with anyone else, not Susan and now even Caleb. Before I know where I have gone, I am in the music block. And then I realise why. I have to speak to Ms. Wu.

"Come in. Oh Tris it's you. What do you want to talk about."
"Um hi Ms. Wu-"
"Call me Tori. Everyone else does."
"Ok er Tori. I don't know. When you said that the name Tris suited me better, I took it to heart - as I think you have observed - and I er I thought I could be Dauntless. But I am not so sure now. I also want to be Abnegation and Erudite. What should I pick? Because Christina asked me if I wanted to sit with them at lunch so I agreed because I wanted to belong but now I am not so sure because-" I look up to her eyes and see a look of concern and... fear?
"Um what's wrong?"

"You can't tell anyone." She says in a hoarse whisper, "you're divergent. You can't let anyone know. I thought you were but I wasn't certain but now I am. You have got to hide in one faction. Chose one. Act like one. Hide it."
"But I don't understand. Why do I have to dumb down? Why is being divergent so bad? And why are you helping me?"

"My brother was divergent too. He was treated like the lowest man, all his qualities were ignored and everything he wad bad at was amplified to the highest volume. At first he was sentenced to join the factionless, the homeless, but soon I couldn't stand it. So we faked his death and a funeral and then he dressed up and went to get plasic surgery. He got some large, distinctive tattoos all so he wouldn't be recognised. Finally we gave him a new name, Victor Wu, and we got married to add more to his fake identity. You can't let them know do you understand?"

I can only nod.

"Good. I suggest you go home now. You must feel a bit dizzy from all the events of today. I'll make it official. I am used to making things official. Watch out Tris." She said and then turned her back to me.

So like she suggested, I went home "sick".

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Time lapse to next day

"What happened to you Bea. I was so worried you had died or something. I could barely sleep. We must exchange numbers so we can keep in touch even if you do go to dauntless. I think you'd suit it. Maybe you could be... Tris! Tris the brave. Oh that would be wonderful... sorry have I said too much?"
"No. You know what, I think you could be right." I muse and smile.
"I'm glad you think so. Although I will miss you. I'd never pass the Dauntless initiation and I'd never want to. I think I belong here in Abnegation but loads of my friends are moving to Amity. What should I do?"
I think over it a bit before saying, "well I suppose that whatever choice you make, you'll have made a choice accordingly. So if you go for Abnegation, you will have been selfless because that would mean that you were not indulging yourself with your friends and if you chose Amity that would be kind because you would have your friends and your friends would have you."

"You're right. You're such a good friend. I'm really going to miss you." She says and flings herself upon me in a hug. I reluctantly and awkwardly pat her back because I don't know what to do.

Then we go our separate ways to our lessons.

A/N I think that's enough for this chapter.
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