Soulmates

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A/N: hi I wanna enter the wattys so I'm just publishing the rest lol
I took a deep breath trying to calm my mind.
Callie will be fine.
She hasn't seen her dad since she was 2 and doesn't know how he behaves.
The thoughts showed up like a dark mist and a part of me knew I couldn't keep them at bay; not alone.

Alex will be there.
Neither of them know what he looks like.
Callie promised-
Callie doesn't know what's going to happen.
I trust Callie-
Does Callie really trust Alex?
Alex-
Is someone who you've never met or spoken to. You can't trust her.
Callie does so I will.
Is that really a wise choice?
Wise or not I will.
What about her?
Her?
Dray. You trusted her, too. Look where that got you.
Dray's friends must be manipulating her again.
But what if they aren't? What if she willingly went back to them?
But that cut on her arm before-
She might've did it to herself to make it seem that way. To fool you.
Dray wouldn't do that. We were close up until then.
What if she was faking it the whole time?
She wasn't. That is not the real Dray.
What if you don't know the real her and this is it?
But Dray-
Called you a fag. Would your own friend call you that?

I stuffed my face in my pillow, covering my tears. Why can't I just calm down? Why can't I just trust those around me? Trust what they say? Why do I have to guess everything they do?
Because they all say this to make dealing with you easier.
Dray didn't have a problem saying she didn't want to be friends.
She's just upfront about it. She's always been upfront about things. They all think that you're a mess. A waste of space. Nothing worth talking to. A burden.
Not Callie. She makes it clear she doesn't.
But what if she really does?

I cried myself to sleep with a headache from the tears, knowing it'll still be there when I wake up.