CEO' s Husband (Alfonso Series #2)

Chapter 04

Juancho' s

"Fuck!"

I cursed. Halos mabasag na ang baso na may lamang alak na nasa kanang kamay ko sa higpit ng kapit ko. I fucking feel so frustrated! Mabilis kong nilagok ang laman nito at mariing pumikit nang malasahan ko ang magkahalong anghang at pait.

"Juancho, please... Don't do this to me."

Fuck! Hindi mawala sa isip ko ang mga mata niyang punong-puno ng luha at nagmakakaawang huwag ko siyang palabasin ng kotse. I brushed my fingers to my hair to lessen whatever the fuck that I am feeling right now. Is conscience eating me?

Why the hell would you feel that way? Stop it, Juancho. Caelus deserves it anyway. Anang isip ko.

I unconsciously nodded. Right. Tama lang ang ginawa ko sa kanya. I just do hope that the what I did will wake him up, that no matter what he'll do, I will never forgive him. "Serves you fucking right, Caelus," I mumbled.

Tumayo na ako upang umakyat na sa taas ng kwarto ko. I should sleep. Naglakad na ako papunta sa hagdanan nang lumabas mula sa maid's quarter si manang Elena at nasalubong ako. She gave me a deep stare and so I frowned.

"What?" I asked.

"Nasaan si Caelus, Juancho? Hindi pa siya umuuwi. Tumawag siya kanina sabi niya pauwi—"

"The hell I care. Let him be, manang. Just go back to sleep. Wherever he is right now is not our problem anymore."

Umiling-iling ito at bakas ang pag-alala sa mukha. Bakit ba siya nag-aalala para kay Caelus? He's old enough to handle himself.

"Hindi. Tawagan mo nga, Juancho. Nag-aalala na talaga ako. Malakas ang ulan. Baka napaano na yun, hating gabi na."

I gulped, "I... I'm sure he'll be home, soon. Just go back to sleep."

"Wala ka bang kahit konting pag-alala sa asawa mo, Juancho?"

Asawa? I smirked, "Asawa? He's not my husband, manang. You know our situation. You do know how I hated that guy to the fucking core. He could die out there and I can go on with life."

Malungkot itong ngumiti sa akin, "Juancho, kailan mo ba makikita ang pagmamahal ni Caelus para sayo? Siguro nga mali ang ginawa niya pero siguro ay may malalim siyang dahilan. Kailan mo ba makikita na mahal ka ng asawa't anak mo, Juancho? Pamilya mo sila. Mahal ka ni Caelus."

"No. They aren't my family. I never accepted him as my husband and Juaqinn as my son. Just please, manang, stop meddling with our lives."

"Nakikita ko lahat ng ginagawa mo, Juancho at nakikita ko rin ang ginagawang pagtitiis ni Caelus. Huwag ka sanang bulag, dahil kapag ipinagpatuloy mo yan, darating ang araw na tuluyan silang mawawala sayo."

Darating ang araw na tuluyan silang mawawala sayo.

I breathed deeply, "Then that's even better. I want them out of my life for good."

Umiling-iling si manang Elena at tinalikuran ako. I know she's angry at me but what can she do? Nothing. Tuluyan na akong naglakad papunta sa may hagdanan upang pumanhik na sa taas.

Habang naglalakad papunta sa kwarto ko, nadaanan ko ang kwarto kung saan natutulog si Caelus at Juaqinn. I stopped from walking exactly at the front of their room. I reached for the doorknob.

I found myself standing next to the bed where Juaquinn is sleeping. He... He is like an angel. Kumuyom ang kanang kamao ko nang matantiya kong nakaupo na ako sa kama at titig na titig kay Juaquinn.

"You look exactly just like me," I blurted out of the blue. I lifted my hand and was about to touch his head but then I stopped, "If only that Caelus didn't do that shit to me, I wouldn't be cold and distant to you, Juaqinn."

But then if Caelus didn't do that, Juaquinn will never exist. Anang isip ko.

I shook my head. Why the fuck am I even here? Mabilis akong tumayo upang sana ay lumabas na but then Juaquinn started calling Caelus.

"Babe... Babe..."

Base on his tone and facial expression, he is on the verge of crying and he did. Nagsimula nga itong umiyak at paulit-ulit na tinatawag si Caelus. Bigla pa itong umupo at nag-iiyak na. Fuck! What the hell should I do?

"Babe... Babe.... Babe..."

"Your babe is not here!" I said. Juaquinn then lifted his head and he stared at me and there I saw his red nose and his watery eyes. I gulped.

"Dad... Daddy..."

Something coated my heart when I heard him and I don't fucking know how to explain but something warm yet heavy is what I am feeling right now as I stared back at Juaquinn. Though he is still crying, he opened his arms like he wants a... hug?

"Daddy... I wuv you... Daddy..."

Fuck! Kaagad kong tinalikuran si Juaquinn. I don't want to look at him, I don't want to hear him because it feels suffocating.

"Babe.... Daddy...."

Fuck!

I reached for the doorknob but Juaquinn's crying became so loud and in an instance, I turned back to him. Inilang hakbang ko ang kama at kaagad na siyang kinarga. His little arms hugged my neck and just like that, my heart pounded.

"Shhh your... your babe will be home, soon," I whispered as I gently rubbed his back. I don't know how to comfort a crying baby. I am just doing the best that I can. "Sleep."

"I... wuv... I wuv you... Daddy..."

Mariin akong pumikit. Pilit kong iwinawaksi ang hindi ko maintindihan pakiramdam ko ngayon. Those words should not affect me. It should not!

I should leave him but I can't. That Caelus is still not home. Or maybe it's something else? My mind asked. I shook that thought off. This is nothing.

"Sleep." I coldly said, still rubbing his back.

Ilang minuto pa'y naramdaman kong bumigat ito at nahulog ang mga braso nitong nakayakap sa leeg ko. I think he's back to sleeping and when I am sure already that he's back in his deep slumber, dahan-dahan ko siyang inilapag ulit sa kama. I covered him with blanket but I not whole, afraid that it might suffocate him. I reached for his hair, "Sleep well, kiddo——" Mabilis akong lumayo sa kama. What the fuck, Juancho?

I let out a deep breath before turning my back against the bed. I should really get out of this room. Naglakad ako papunta sa pinto at nang maabot ng kamay ko ang doorknob, nilingon ko ulit si Juaquinn. I sighed and then I went out. Nang makalabas ako'y tinignan ko ang suot kong relo, it's past 1 am.

Where the fuck is Caelus? Why is he not home yet? You fucking left him in the middle of an empty road and is soaking wet because of rain, right? What do you expect? Part of my mind says.

I don't care. Kung hindi siya uuwi then fine. He's too dramatic, his two legs are fine. He can walk home. Am I being heartless? Serves him right.

Maglalakad na sana ako papunta sa kwarto ko when I heard something downstairs. Kaagad na kumunot ang noo ko. The voices sounded like manang Elena's and someone familiar. Mabilis kong tinungo ang hagdanan at mabilis na bumaba. I am sure those voices are coming  from the living room and when I reached the living room...

"Diyos ko po, Caelus!"

I saw manang on the couch and Caelus is next to him, eyes were closed, not sleeping but more like... unconscious? Umiwas ako ng tingin.

"What the fuck is happening here?" I asked.

Lumipad ang tingin ko sa lalaking nakatayo sa tabi ng couch. His eyes were dark and deadly but then that won't threaten me, instead I gave him a blank stare.

"Why are you here, Alejandro?"

Alejandro Alfonso III, my brother.

"I brought your husband home and oh, to give you this!"

Bago pa man ako makahuma, malakas na tumama ang kamao ni Alejandro sa akin. He was too fast for me to avoid.

Damn! He made my mouth bleed!

"What the fuck was that for?!!" Galit kong tanong habang pinapahid ang dugo sa labi ko.

"That's not enough for what you did to your husband. You just don't fucking know how much I want to beat you to the fucking death. You shit!"