Make It Right || J.JK

Chapter 19

Chapter 19
Steamy
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(By the way-- this chapter contains inappropraite scenes💀)

Waking up with a certain back pain caused by a certain thing is the best thing! I never knew we'd come to that point in time again, and I'm glad she wasn't against it. After almost a year of being deprived from such activity, I couldn't help but rail her damn good.

Ding ding! It's 10 am!! Exactly 13 hours from our children's bedtime schedule and exactly 9 hours from when we finished! Stamina? Nah, man. All those months of hiatus had gave me an alarming amount of raging hormones for a fuck. Damn, I would be up to the moon and back to wake up every morning of every day beside my Y/n.

Everywhere...it's sore...but fuck, this is a reward! A reward I do not know if I deserve it.

Very little amount of light source sipped inside our bedroom, but I can see her beautiful sleeping face right infront of me as clear as crystal waters. My heart swelled with so many emotions...both positive and negative.

The positive ones; I'm happy I get to have this kind of morning again like we used to. Waking up beside the one and only love of your life is the greatest luxury the world could offer you. My heart swelled with so much love for her...

But then the negative ones; I felt like I don't deserve this. I felt so bad about myself...and I felt like this is a reminder of guilt that this beautiful experience was thrown away by me because of my selfish deeds for leaving her. I realized I only thought of myself when I chose to leave her, and I thought at that time that that was for the better for both of us.

It was not.

But she said everything is okay now. She had forgiven me and accepted her fault partaking in our broken marriage. But never will this guilt leave me no matter how much she says it's okay now.

Once again, I walked out of her life, came barging in as if I haven't even left in the first place, and yet she eventually welcomed me in.

As from what she said to me last night, I quote, "You might have left me before...but it was your presence that was gone, but your heart remained where you left it and gave it to, and what matters now is that we're finally together again. You're here with me now, and I'm here with you. Let's just focus on our present and our future, not our past."

Now you can't question me why I questioned myself if I deserve her.

A small smile tugged on the corners of my lips as I caressed away her soft hair that fell on her face. She's so gorgeous for Pete's sake... Seeing this infront of me is like falling in love again. Everything from when we first saw each other, fell in love together, grew this love and had children came playing in my memory like a movie. But although it made me happy, it also made me sad at the same time. Such precious memories treated like trash for a mere divorce paper. How dare I, right?

I sniffled and snapped out of my thoughts before I realized I started to cry.

Fuck, why am I so emotional?!?!

I abruptly sat up and wiped the snot that ran down my nose as well as the tears. I can't have Y/n see me like this when she wakes up! Uhh...I can tell her I'm in pain all over my body then! Seems reasonable enough! And then the mentioned pain shot all over my body.