Dear diary,
Tomorrow I'm going to move to Leeds. I'm not ready. The last weeks were rough. Charlies death was a month ago. Ben got arrested btw. The police didn't believe Bens story. What exactly he gets as punishment is not clear yet but I hope he goes to jail.
My thoughts are spinning around all the time. I miss Charlie. My bed feels so empty without him. We were never a normal teenage couple. We slept in each other houses all the time. So he slept in my bed so often. I loved that. And now he's gone. My bed feels so cold.
And tomorrow I have to move. On the one side I'm not ready for that but on the other side I'm thinking that's good. I will need more time. I can't imagine that I ever can get over Charlie.
I wonder how my life will change after moving. The thought, that I have to come out again, scares me. It didn't when Charlie was still with me but now I don't know how to come out again. What if my roommate is homophobic? When Harry was homophobic I could handle it. But I don't know if I can handle it when I have to share a dorm room with a homophobic. My brother would just pretend to be straight than but he never checked this whole being bisexual thing. Charlie helped me coming out of the closet and I will never have to go back so let's just hope my roommate isn't homophobic. And now I'm going to have my last long walk with Nellie for the next months.
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And again, it's your turn:
How is Nicks new roommate be like?
A) homophobic like Harry
B) an ally
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