Dear Diary - a Heartstopper AU

August 25th

Dear diary,

they didn't found a better prove that Ben killed Charlie. But both of us had to go to the police office. Because there are still the two DNA samples. So today I went to the police station. I explained everything again. It was exhausting. I just want to be alone in my room. I mean, Charlie is dead. I will never hear his voice again. Never see his smile with his cute dimples. I will never listen to him playing the drums again. And that's all Bens fault. Although Ben tried to explain everything. They allowed me to listen to Bens statement. It was hilarious. Ben said, he was walking around, because his thoughts were spinning around. And then he met Charlie. They just talked and then Charlie kissed him. When Ben said that I had to laugh. Charlie would never. Ben told the officer also, that Charlie wanted everything that they did. And after that, Charlie just walked away. The officer asked if Ben had an explanation for the injury on Charlie's head which caused his death. Ben refused and still stands by his statement that Charlie wants sex with him and then walked away.
I told the police that he was lying. Charlie would never kiss Ben. And I mean, sex with Ben? Really? In Bens dreams maybe. I was so angry and shocked at the same time. I don't know if the officer believed me . I told him that I knew Charlie the best. I knew everything about him. I also told him that I feel guilty because I didn't walk Charlie home. The officer told that it was not my fault because I couldn't know what happened. But still.
Bens Statement was hilarious. How could he say that Charlie wanted...? Just how? After the appointment at the police I called Tori and told her what happened. She laughed. She said that Ben is pathetic and dumb. I agreed with her.
When I got home my mom insisted that I have to pack for Uni.
I'm moving to Leeds next week. My mom was planning a big party but I told her that I don't want a party, so she stopped planning.
I don't how I can focus on Uni now. I'm not ready for that. My mom thinks it might be good to move on. I got angry when she said that. Move on? Charlie is dead for at least 10 days now and I should move on? 10 days? You can't get over the love of your life in 10 days? How does she think this is gonna work? Does she think that I move to Leeds and than immediately forget that Charlie existed? I just want him back and that's not possible. I hope they don't believe Ben and he gets his punishment.
And I have to try to live a life without Charlie.

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And your turn again. Does Ben get a punishment?

A) No
B) Yes