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❅ Jackass ❅ 04
It has been three months since Cherry and Mingyu started dating and a month since I started distancing myself from them.
But it seemed like neither of them noticed.
I know I made Cherry promise that she'd let me stay by her side, but I started questioning everything again, those words she spoke that day.
"You're my first and only best friend, of course I'll always need you.. I promise to let you stay by my side, Jeon Jungkook.. Forever and ever."
What a joke.
Clearly, I barely existed to her now, all she saw was Mingyu and the same could be said for him.
My breaking point was when Mingyu started telling me things about Cherry that I didn't know.
Might be stupid, it probably is but, up until now I thought I was her only best friend, the person who knew the most about her and to hear another person teach me things about her made my heart break with a realization.
Cherry was never mine.
What she told Mingyu are things she'd only tell her boyfriend, which seemed logical when he looked at me with a surprised expression on his face when I told him that I didn't know about anything he told me.
The smug expression on his face.. I wanted to make it disappear.
I wanted to make everything disappear.
Everything but Cherry.
To me, only her mattered.
But to her.. Things had changed.
She began dating Mingyu, allowing him in her own little world where only I was welcomed before, she slowly started to become friends with other people. From what I knew, she wasn't very close to them, but it was enough to hang out outside of school.
I never thought that despite being okay being alone, Cherry might've felt lonely at times.
That made me hate myself more, wondering if during our friendship I might've tried to isolate her so she can solely rely on me.
She talked about hanging out with other people sometimes and I always tried to deflect the topic, or only talked bad about the people she said she wanted to be friends with.
Cherry didn't care about people's appearance or if their interests were seen as 'weird' by other people, she didn't care about all the petty high school 'social groups' stuff, if she vibed with someone, she'd befriend them.
From what Mingyu told me, she was homeschooled all of her life so the main reason behind her cold exterior this whole time was pure shyness and a bit of anxiety.
I felt sick to my stomach when I started to regret talking to her that day.
As I was the first person to show her a desire for friendship, it can be assumed that I was the one to open that door for her to socialize with other people.
