Early Stage Of My Misleading Algorithm.
Careful examination of my own thoughts,feelings and reasons led me to behave/think that the atmosphere was fraught. Back then, when I see people who taut the wrong people and feel distraught, I can't help imagining they can't hold down excuses when they see they are nut.
According to a source, just because you have a thought,it doesn't necessarily mean its true. In my own case, I thought mine was always correct because I had this chance of getting away with things. Looking back at those days it sucks that I did all those things back then. I wouldn't say I hate myself for such things, I was a growing child who was thinking poorly or should I say an amateur who don't really know what is out there. Inspite of the fact, that I was not giving a breathing space when it comes to punishment and you might say "yay, she had a disciplined parents who weren't giving her space and why will she mess up?
That's true ,the real fact is that I did such things thinking am the badness and that's part of life, rights and so on. Now, if you view it from another angle, you get to see that it's pure foolishness.
Still a growing child the algorithm I set was a hot mess not a good one. It was twisted,complicated,
disgusting,lack good morals,unimportant, fabricated,
insult,speechless,failure and all other unpleasant words you could name it. I can't believe that I once had such an algorithm which was highly irresponsible but it's well at least I got to unfire,unwire and refire,rewire before its too late. Give that plus to the better me.
Art is dynamic and I thought my algorithm was dynamic. (Smile) I learnt that my thinking creates my environment,orders my environment so I decided to create my thinking. Did you create it in a positive way or did you just not care and carried on ? Well, I didn't create it in a positive way rather it had twists and turns which resulted to a disaster and assuming I tried to put more effort maybe their wouldn't be any change. Why say such? Being that I think poorly,I wouldn't still see my mistakes. I kind of place myself into a box which was going to be hard to unbox.
There are three powerful mindset blocks according to Amanda Crowell.
1.) You think somewhere in your mind that you can't do it. You think that some people have the talent or the genetics to do this things and specifically speaking,
"The Heart Of Success Is Not Talent Rather effort"
2.) You think people like you don't do things like this and this one comes down to our identity.
3.) Secretly,you don't want to do it.
Growing up and following my egoistic algorithm which led me to have the kind of personality I had back then. I found out that, I displayed some characters which was really unbelievable,unbearable for me today.
Nevertheless,deep down I was always feeling guilt,scared,self-conscious and so on. I was the quote on quote perfect girl in people's eyes. Me not knowing what it is to have flaws thought I was okay in my lane and good at everything including manipulating people. I hated when someone rates me low,stupid
Dumb and so on. I will always try my best to prove them wrong maybe not always but at least few times.
We should learn and try to mould our life in a perfect way. Despite that nobody is perfect but we should attempt to make it look outstanding. Bear in mind that perfectionism has its own pros and cons. You shouldn't let perfectionism get to your way/head.
One of my favourite saying "If you don't listen you won't get to the end of it". In other for me to get to the end of it I had to try and listen.
When I thought I had my way in everything I was just fooling around and deceiving myself. Although my computing algorithm came in handy and some how I escaped some certain things. If I had continued with the same get-away perfect rules on quote, I don't really know what my personality will become of today. I give credit to the source that said, The same thoughts leads to the same choice. The same choice leads to the same behaviour. The same behaviour creates the same experience and the same experience produces the same motion. When I was going through this my mind diverted to "Metacognition". This is the process by which knowledge and understanding is developed in the mind. Our brain is an ultimate super computer processing 2_11milions of information every seconds. In time to come my algorithm will execute more positivity in different diversity.
"Our subconscious mind is powerful and the best way I can reset mine is to think positively and program well".
