Furry High School

Chapter 18: Regret

It was Wednesday. I wasn't going to school, I'm not going to do anything today except wallow in self pity. I lay on my bed curled up in a ball, my mom comes in and asks "baby, what's wrong?" I just lay there and start to cry. "I'm fine *sniff* I just need *sniff* some space" she nodded her head and walked out of my room and shut the door. I curled tighter into a ball, 'what is happening to me? I'm such a bad person,' I thought, 'ever since I met Gavin and his friends, my whole life has changed, I shouldn't have tried to be friends with Gavin, if I hadn't become friends with him then I wouldn't be regretting what I've done' I sob, and sob, and sob, sob, sob. I hear a knock at the front door, I'm the only one home, so I just ignored it, then I hear louder and more rapid knocking. I get up, wipe my tears away, and start walking down stairs, I get to the door and open it. It was Gavin. He looks at me with worried eyes, he grabs me and pulls me into him for a hug, he pets my hair as I squeeze him tightly. I cry into his chest and he kisses my head, he pushes me inside and looks into my eyes. "Baby girl, whats wrong? I won't get mad" 'yes u will' I thought, he puts his hands on my shoulders and I try to avoid eye contact. "Please tell me, baby" he pleaded, I look at him with a look of "I don't want to tell u," he stares at me and I know there's no way of getting out of it. I take a deep breath and begin "yesterday, I was in history, Riley was acting weird, but that's not what I'm trying to tell u yet. Joey then asked me if he could have sex with me-" "you said no of coarse?" "Well sorta" "what do u mean sorta?" "Let me just explain" "fine" "he asked me and I said, 'Joey I can't do this, I have a boyfriend already' then he acted as if he understood but then he forced a kiss on me, I tried to push him away but he was strong for his size, then we-" you? You what?" "We had sex......" "what!!" "I'm sorry, I know I'm such a horrible person" he just looked at the floor. "then Riley said she loved me and she almost had sex with me, but I kicked her and she ran away crying" I started to cry "Gavin, I feel awful, that's why I stayed home, I was wallowing in self pity before you came here, I feel so bad" I cried, he looked away from me, I cried even harder and pushed past him, trying to run to my room, but he caught my arm. "Another man touched you" he said in a grim voice, I tried to pull away but he held on tight, I cried out, he pulled me in front of him and hugged me "I don't care, he forced u to do it" he hesitated, "don't ever, ever, let another man touch u" he squeezed me tighter and I could feel a tear hit my back, I smiled slightly and cried. We stayed like that for a little, then we broke apart and he kissed me. I thought he was going to be mad, I thought he was going to hate me forever and never want to talk to me again. But instead, he enveloped me with his love, he forgave me, he still loves me, even tho I did the unthinkable. "I thought that you would never love me again, I've been so mean to u" I sobbed, as he looked into my eyes "I will always love you, I will always forgive you, I love u too much to hate u" he said with a slight smile, he kissed my forehead. "Wanna watch a movithon(movie marathon)" he asked me, I nodded and went to go get a bowl of popcorn, when I came back I turned on Netflix. I sat next to him with my knees in my chest and he put his arm around me, I searched through the movies and saw FIOS(Fault In Our Stars) and it made me smile. I put it on a laid my head on his shoulder. I remember our first date, we saw that movie, I remember how nervous he was, then he became super seductive and aggressive. I'm so happy I met Gavin, I want to stay like this forever.