𝐒.𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐎𝐋𝐎 𝐎.𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐇𝐎𝐓𝐒

07- Matt

tw: insomnia // mental health topics

I was in the kitchen making some food for Matt and I, so we could hang out. I just put chocolate in the microwave. It melted, and I grabbed a cone and dipped it in chocolate, then set them in the freezer. I walked into the living room, and there he was. The love of my life, sitting there and waiting for me.

"Hey Matty." I smiled and walked up to sit next to him. "Hey, what're you making?" He put his phone down, and looked at me. "I melted chocolate so I could put it on the cone a little, then we're gonna dip our ice cream in it." He smiled, and put his arms around my shoulders. "Thanks, so are the cone's in the freezer then?" I nodded, and moved closer to him. "It should be done though."

We both went into the kitchen, and he looked at me. "Are you weAring my shirt?" His voice literally cracked, really hard. I giggled like a child, "I might be." I shrugged and grabbed the cone's out of the freezer. "What kind of ice cream?" We both got our ice cream on the cones, and dipped them in the melted chocolate. Well, I did. He was on his phone the whole time.

I put them back in the freezer, so the chocolate would completely harden. I leaned against the counter next to him and put my arm around him. He had dark eye bags, "You can go to sleep and we can eat those tomorrow." I said, rubbing his back. He shook his head, "No, I'm not tired." He looked over at me and smiled. I looked down at his phone, and what he was looking at. Insomnia treatments.

I felt terrible after I read that. "Honey, c'mon. Don't lie to me, let's go get some sleep." He shook his head slowly, a smile still plastered on his face. My heart broke looking at him like that. "Matt," I made him turn his whole body towards me, I had my arms on his shoulders. He looked nervously at me "I know that you haven't been sleeping well. You can't lie to me about those things. "

After a second, his smile turned into a large frown, and I felt my stomach drop when the first tear fell. "Remember when I told you that I would always be there for you?" He asked me, and I nodded, "And it's my turn to be there for you. Let's go talk, 'kay?" He hesistated momentarily, then finally nodded. I dropped my hands from his shoulders, and grabbed his hand.

We walked into the living room, and there were his brothers. "Guys, we said that we wanted to be alone tonight." I said as soon as we got in there. Matt stopped me, putting his open hand on my cheek. "No, I wanted to talk to all three of you." He said, and that's how I could tell thay he was exhausted. I nodded sadly, "Okay hun." I frowned, and kissed his cheek.

We all sat down in a circle, everyone was tired, but I could tell that Matt definetly had the worst of it. We all had our attention on Matt. "I wanted to talk to you all tonight, because I could tell that Y/N was getting worried, and I didn't want you guys too also." He paused, which made my eyes start glossing over. He took a deep breath. "I didn't want to say anything because I didn't want you guys to think I'm weak, or treat me special.

"Matt, you know you can tell us anything and everything. We're a trio, " Nick said, leaving me out "We won't ever judge you for anything." Chris added. Matt smiled at them, "I haven't been sleeping well. I've been feeling super exhausted, but I just can't sleep. I've been researching it, and I think I have insomnia. " The boys let out a soft gasp, while I closed my eyes tightly, to stop any tear from falling out.

I started to drown everything out after that. I could feel movement, and I finally opened my eyes back uo. They were all hugging each other, and I looked back away. I finally stood myself up, and headed for the kitchen. I slumped down behind the counter to hide myself, and I let it all out. My tears started coming, and they wouldn't stop for a long time.

I made my cries slient, so if they did come look for me, they wouldn't find me, accidentally. I took my phone out, and started researching on how to help someone with Insomnia. With my vision blurry, and the tears just falling out, I had to read and wipe my tears every 5 seconds. There's not much you can do if you're not a pro. The best solution is to just take them to the therapist, and be there for them.

I could hear footsteps, three sets of two. I stayed behind the counter, until I heard Matt call out to me. "Y/N, please come out.." He sounded exhausted. If he doesn't get any sleep, he'll definetly pass out-- or- or worse. I poked my head out, and he smiled. It was a genuine smile, unlike the ones he'd been showing me these last few weeks. I went back down, hiding.

After grabbing my phone, turning it off and putting it in my pocket, I stood up. Matt walked up to me slowly, with his arms out. "Matt, can we be alone for a second?" The boys walked out, and I hugged Matt tightly. "I think I have a solution to the problem for tonight." He said after a pause. "Can you stay over tonight? Maybe, I could sleep with you tonight, because I knoe you've gone through something like this."

I nodded and hugged him tighter. "Not exactly, but we can do everything we need to do. I need you to get better, and I can't lose you. I love you." I pulled away from him, and we shared a kiss.

definetly one of my longest parts. I'll be posting a whole lot more, so beware. <3

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