Steddie Oneshots(Paused)

★"There's More"★(Rewrite)

Ik I said y'all would get really Intense smut but Angst is my favorite and always will be and it's sm fun to write I promise you'll get porn soon y'all

TW/CW:S3lfh@rm, mention of sh@rp objects,Trans Eddie,alot of s3lfh@rm,
3rd person

Eddie sat in the bathroom,Sobbing quietly.It was getting bad again.

He had always thought with Steve it would get better,He was happy with Steve so why wasn't he happy?Was he just that selfish?Did he even love Steve?Thoughts like that ran through the boy's head

He shook his head and sighed as he lifted his put down head and looked at himself in the mirror.

He didn't see Eddie,He couldn't see Eddie.All he could see was her.From his feminine Nose to his Chest,To his curvy body.No Matter what he seemed to do he never saw Eddie.

He stood up and walked the kitchen,He decided maybe making a sandwich for himself might help so that's what he did.He grabbed a knife to cut the sandwich in half once it was made and once he cut it he found himself staring at the knife.He had been clean ever since him and Steve became a thing but how much he longer to feel the Knife slide across his skin,The feeling of his skin slicing open,Seeing the blood gush out,Picking at the scars after they had healed slightly, Everything about it he wanted.

Without looking at his sandwich he slowly lifted up his shirt,Seeing serval healed up scars from once before.He gulped and held the knife to his stomach.Was he really about to do this?

He Slowly slide the knife across his skin,Feeling it slice open.Tears filled his eyes as he cut more and more.

Without willing the blood he simply put his shirt back down and looked at his healed arms as he rolled up his sleeves

He then cut and Carved like no tommorow,There was blood and Tears all over the floor,And then that's when he heard a car door slam.

Steve was home.he quickly picked up his shirt to clean up the blood and Tears,Doing a crappy job before running to the bathroom with the knife, Locking the door.He was hyperventilating,Steve would be so mad if he found out he started cutting again.He held the knife in his hand and his shirt in his lap as he hid in the bathtub.

"Eddie I'm home!"He heard a Voice call out and all Eddie could do was cover his mouth with his hand.

"Eddie?"He heard a voice from right by the door call out-"Hey are you in here?"Steve asked and knocked on the door-"Uh yeah!I'm taking a Shower!"Eddie said,His voice wobbly and it cracked serval times.

"Oh okay,Hey are you..Are you alright?"Steve asked and Eddie tried to control his breathing."Y-Yep!"Eddie said."Can I come in?"Steve asked the other boy and Eddie Panicked."Uh No Not right now!"Eddie yelled and Steve sighed and nodded to himself -"Okay Eddie wanna watch a movie when you get out?"Steve asked and Eddie smiled some-"Yeah but Could you get me a shirt?"Eddie asked and Steve answered with a okay.Steve had got the shirt and then knocked in the door,Only having his hand in between the door with the shirt."Here"Eddie took the shirt and closed the door.he took his old shirt and used it to clean his wounds and changed into the shirt,Pulling the sleeves down as far as they could go so you could see the marks.He left the bathroom and hugged Steve-"Aw finally I've been wanting to see you all day."Steve said and Eddie smiled sadly -"Yeah,I've been missing you too."

Steve took the others hand and they sat on the couch,Eddie curled up some and leaned against Steve.

Steve wrapped his arms around the others Waist and Eddie winced in pain due to the cuts."Eds you okay?"Steve asked seeing his reaction."Uh yeah I'm okay"Eddie said and Steve looked at his questionable but then looked back at the movie.

Eddie was exhausted and honestly looked sick due to alot of the blood loss and Steve had noticed -",Hey Eddie Are you sick?"Steve asked,Placing his hand on Eddie's face,Forcing the other to look at him.

Eddie avoided eye contact and gulped slightly-"No I'm fine Stevie"Eddie told him and looked at him-"Okay Eds but is something bothering you?"Steve asked and Eddie shook his head and Steve sighed before and pausing the movie and looking at Eddie.

"Eddie what happened"Steve asked him and Eddie felt his legs shake some-"Nothing Steve-"Eddie told him again.

Steve looked at him confused and grabbed onto his wrist some and saw the other wince slightly and pull away.

"Eddie?"-"Yes?"-"Can I roll up your sleeves?"

Eddie gulped and shook his head."Eddie please"Steve Begged and Eddie sighed and put his arm up to the other and looked away Then Steve rolled up his sleeve.

"Oh my.."Steve wanted to cry the cuts were deep,Some looked like they were still bleeding."Eddie Baby,,"Steve touched them slightly and Eddie bit his tongue,Getting ready to be lectured but Steve had only picked the other up and brought him to the Bedroom and placed him on the bed,pulling him close."Are there anymore?"Steve asked and Eddie Only nodded as he rolled up his shirt some so Steve could see his chest and all the marks."Please don't yell or lecture me"He begged Steve and Steve just looked at him confused before shaking his head some."Don't worry baby I'm not gonna yell at you or anything we all Slip up sometimes it's okay"Steve told Eddie and that caused the boy to start to Sob.He had never had someone care so much about him.

"Do you wanna talk about what happened?"Steve asked and Eddie just slowly shook his head.

"it's okay,I love you so Much Eddie"

"I love you too Stevie"