SWEET RELIEF

~(Chapter ten)~

Tw: heavy emotional monologue.

Mentions: suicide, emotional manipulation, personal degradation, depression and anxiety.

This book is to help highlight mental health issues that aren't discussed often. If you feel or happen to relate to anything written, please seek help.

Their are so many ways of seeking emotional and mental assistance.

Stella pov

I really hope I'm not the only one who feels like they are underappreciated. Ever since I was young. Having an overly active sibling, mostly made me grow up in the shadows.

She was loud and heard, I was only seen. I've always felt like my parents prefer her more than me, at times. She always gets most of the attention all of the time. The only time I was heard was when I made my presence known.

I wonder why get children if you can't love them equally. It surely can't be that hard right? Even if they decided to have other kids, I'm sure I'd feel even more neglected.

They only see me as a helper; do chores, get good grades and be the good girl I was. Mom, tells me to do things even while I'm trying to read. Steph not doing anything, just using her phone or asleep. She will send me out at night to get something from the shop, even though she knows I'm scared of the dark. I have told her several times that I don't like been out alone at night.

Dad, sees me as nothing than a trophy daughter that he exhibits their talents when close to people. He will just say something inorder to be seeing as the perfect father. 'My daughter's have cars of their own. They even competed in the national swimming competitions, Steph got silver but Stella has some improving to do.'

Sometimes it's suffocating to be in this house. I tell myself 'only two more years' and I'm gone to a university so far from home. I'll only be going home for important holidays.

Wow, I hadn't realised I was that unhappy. I'll get some help cause if this continues I'll find myself killing myself.

Today will make two weeks after Karan made the promise to leave me alone, one week of him getting a girlfriend, five days that Steph and Nick split up and three days that the table has been quiet almost all lunches. I'm of course an emotional wreck.

Karan's girl, Sharon is surprisingly nice. I mean don't get me wrong, I didn't expect her to be bad; but she seems overly nice. She says yes to almost everything Karan asks of her, it's annoying. Doesn't she have things to do? Makes me think that he dates her on purpose, she's like his very own fan girl.

It's been unbearable between Nick and Steph. Apparently they were taking a much needed break to sort out some issues. They wouldn't even look each other in the face these past three days. It was tense around the table.

Anna and Sharon had some talks while Fred and Karan were just looking at their girls. I would try and talk to Steph, she would reply some days. Nick was mostly on his own, sometimes he would ask me questions and would spark convos once in a while.

Sharon has been looking at me weirdly these days and it's making me uncomfortable. She should talk to her boyfriend as well. Karan has been quiet just like I asked him to be but it's kind of odd. I hadn't expected him to follow, somehow he surprises me everyday.

Today I had  to seat next to Karan cause Nick and Steph seemed to be having a moment of verbal knife throwing. Fred and Anna decided to eat outside of the hall and have a lunch date, cute. Sharon had invited some guy over, didn't know his name and wasn't interested.

"You are so selfish, do you know that. I don't even know how and why I dated you. I'm happy that we are even over." Nick said venomously, he seemed very upset.