SWEET RELIEF

~(Chapter sixteen)~

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Nick

Why was I know realising how gorgeous Stella was? Why was I late for acknowledging her feelings for  me? Just when she got together with my brother, I realise the gem that slipped from me.

I've been aware of her feelings for a while now. I didn't want to break up with Steph and get with her sister. That would be mad crazy and selfish. However, right now I'm thinking I should have done that. I'm wishing I had been selfish then.

Stella is gorgeous, she's smart, actually cares about others unlike her sister. She's sweet and has a nice body. If only I had had the courage to approach her before Karan.

That's why I've been avoiding going for lunch with them. Karan and Stella would be cute and do all these things for each other. It was adorable then but now it's like they are rubbing it on all our faces.

It makes me mad that Karan gets all the girls I like. He always got the good ones, even Sharon before her obsession with Stella. While I'm stuck with the  obsessed and psycho ones. Steph was a handful, she had her beautiful moments but her issues were starting to annoy me.

She'd always compare herself to other girls when we were together. She'd make this fake illusions of us being a power couple. Her insta was full of edited photos of us. Whenever we went on dates, we spent almost half of the time ensuring we competed with other couples. Making sure the place was perfect, picture perfect, making delusions.

Sometimes I even wonder why I dated her in the first place.

I was exhausted. She refused to see that and that's why I asked for a break. That seemed hard for the both of us but mostly her. She texted all the time, saying that she'd learnt her lesson and was willing to start again. She'd say that she'll stop being clingy and actually try and have a great time with me. I doubted that.

Was it too much to ask? Why couldn't I be happy? Why Karan all the time?

He receives love from mom all the time. Every time  after practice, he's around her. He definitely her favourite child. I'm sure of it. He gets less pressure from dad. I'm always on the harsh end, receiving more spiteful words from him.

Sometimes I wish we weren't brothers. He should have stayed away, he should have left when he had a chance. Now I have to compete for love and affection from my own parents. It sucked.

"Hey handsome, what has you so worked up?" I stopped my train of thought and looked at the person. Infront of me stood, Juliet. She was a friend from a while ago. We stopped talking when she stopped dating my brother.

They had been sweethearts for like three months before they broke it off. Karan claimed that he hadn't been ready for a relationship. She was hurt and stopped talking to the gang all together. I only saw her along the hallways sometimes.

"Hey Juliet, just some math questions. Nothing much."

"Don't frown too much, you'll get old. I'm sorry, I heard about you and Steph. You looked cute."

"It's okay, we saw it was better for now. We still hang out. Anyways, what's going on in your life?"

"Nothing much, just studies and I started working in the library. I see that new girl most of the time. She's a reader, she really challenges me."

"Yeah, Stella. She reads a lot. She's actually so smart and man she makes me feel unfocused for school at times." It was true though, even during she'll have a novel or flashcards.

"Yeah, I'm sure she's a sweet one, Karan's dating her. Anyway, there's this party Friday night. I'm planning with some friends, just to relax from school. You should come and you can invite your friends. I'm sure it'll be a blast before we start our CATs. We'll be at the cabin."