SWEET RELIEF

~(Chapter thirteen)~

Steph pov

It has been a great  seeing my sister this happy. It's been a while since I've seen her get excited to see a person, a boy for that matter.

Don't get me wrong, Stella is wonderful and would make the best partner, it's just she never showed interest in romantic relationships. She was closed off and rarely said what was on her mind. Maybe I never knew my sister.

So, seeing her during lunch breaks sharing her food with Karan is precious. She smiles more and I'm sure they make each other happy.

I just wished Nick felt the same for me. I've always thought of him as my soulmate. We were very compatible and I thought that meant something to him. The past few weeks have been rough for me.

Starting with swimming practices and competitions. I had a lot of classes to catch up with and it has been pressuring me. I wanted to ask Stella to tutor me but she's finally happy with her boyfriend. I wanted her to be happy in this relationship and they seemed to have a lot of assignments together.

I wanted to ask Nick. This way we could talk and maybe reconcile. I was scared he would say no. We have been arguing even during our break. I don't even know why I agreed to that break. It was pulling us apart.

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I sat across the new couple, they were cute. Sharing good and arguing about the other taking more from the other. I'm sure everyone at the table would agree that they looked wonderful. I'm glad they decided to give each other a chance.

Nick was already at the table. He sat across, wanted to have some space. What hurt me was the way he was looking at Stella. I'm very aware of how she felt for him. At one point I even took advantage of that but no longer.

I was torn, did he like my sister? Why was he looking at her that way? She was dating his brother, so I'm sure her feelings for hime were over.

He was looking at her very secretly, like he didn't want anyone else to notice. I did notice cause I wanted him to look at me that way. I can't even remember when these problems began becoming a hindrance in our relationship but it was becoming hard. He kept ignoring me and that hurt.

"Why were you looking at Stella like that during lunch?" I asked Nick during business class. We sat together, since I first joined this school. Come to think of it, I may have forced him into this decision.

"I don't know what you are talking about. Please talk less we have work."

"Stop the bullshit, you like my sister." It wasn't a question, it is a fact.

"Yeah and what about it. She's better than you in all aspects."

Ouch that hurt. "I thought you liked me," I sounded so pitiful telling him that. We were end-game, the popular couple.

"You thought wrong, and please stay out of my business from now on." After that I didn't even try to strike up conversation.

It hurt that he was speaking to me like this. I mean I adore him and want him to like me back, but I want about to get my heart broken by the same boy twice.

Once bitten twice shy.

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Having to move on was harder than expected. I tried to ignore him even during lunch. Since we usually sat together, I changed seats with Stella and Karan. They sit on my side then I shift to their side.

I'm sure my sister noticed it and I was going to be interrogated later. I'm sure I would have done the same.

It hurt seeing him look at her like that, I mean she's my sister and all but it still hurt. He had that look, he considered her his light and life. I was just there at the corner not been noticed.

She couldn't see it, cause she was looking at Karan as if he's her world. She looked so in love or like, I'm sure she's happy and I'll do anything to let her remain like that.

I'll have to keep myself occupied with other stuff, swimming practice, exams, anything to get Nick out of my head.

The hard times were the weekends when I had nothing to do. I found myself wishing that we were still together. I'd imagine that we were like Stella and Karan. I'd sometimes wish I had chosen the better brother. I'd think a lot and that gave me headaches.

I stopped hanging out with some of my friends cause they thought that it was stupid to break up with a hot guy. Fuck that, I wanted me back.

I wanted my joyful self back and I needed to heal.

That would only happen if I learned that my world didn't revolve around a stupid boy.

I was going to get stronger, wiser and hotter.

I going to make him regret leaving me.

I was going to build myself back up and no one would be allowed to take that away from me.

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This is a short chapter, I just wanted you to see what has been going on with Steph.

My baby is suffering but not for long.

I love writing about pain and suffering cause it's what happens. I'm not going to sugar cot the pain, I want it raw and showing.

This helps people realise that stuff actually happens and can be helped.

See you soon................