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you'll hate me after this.
i've re-written this letter about a hundred times, hoping i can say something that will stop you from hurting.
something that might allow you to understand the situation. not that i expect you to of course, but even so, you may want clarity and yet -
i can't think of anything.
if i were you, i'd hate me as well.
i didn't want to do this to you, believe me. i didn't want to hurt you like that. but i had to.
if you hate me, it's better off that way.
if you want me dead, it's better off that way.
us not being together is better off that way.
i never wanted to see you suffer, yet that's probably what you're doing because of me.
i never lied, though, when i said those things earlier that day. they might not hold much meaning before, but it was never a lie.
what we had was never a lie.
i'm so grateful for the love that you gave me, but there's was a point where i realised i'm never actually going to be able to give it back at the same amount.
we're travelling down two different roads at the moment. if there was a better way, another option, i'd do it immediately. anything to make you hurt less.
'cos you were my love, my soul and my heart at one point.
and it will always stay that way, pretty girl. no matter how hard i try to change it.
i'll always look out for you, i'll always protect you. even when i'm not there, i'll fight your corner.
sometimes i wish i could explain. but you'll see soon.
i do miss you though. not that i have the right to anymore, do i?
you'll hate me even more for this.
writing about my feelings after i just told you i had none. i have no right to grieve, i've done what i've done and i've said what i've said.
i forced myself not to reach out, not to write anything yet here i am writing shit about what exactly?
never mind. i hope you and the others stay safe and lead good lives.
you'll understand soon enough why i did what i've done.
