Do You Really Love Me? (RoChu Fanfic)

Nightmare troubles [page 4]

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[ hi just a warning this does have sensitive topics in this page so if you aren't good with death or mentions of sh (s3lf h@rm) and stuff like that please click out :) thank you and enjoy this page! ]

I sat up in bed, I looked around. This isn't the cabin? I got up, wait. This is my old room? I walked around the house, where are my siblings then? I walked to one of there rooms, why is the door locked? I kept trying to open the door. Dammit I'm just gonna break it. I kicked the door handle as hard as possible and broke it. When I opened the door and walked in the room I saw one of my brothers laying on the floor, he was laying there lifeless with a bloody razor laying on the ground next to him he was as pale as a ghost. I started shaking and froze in place.

What the fuck?! What's happening?!?! I started hyperventilating and ran over to him and picked him up.

Yao: kiku wake up please, this is just a joke right please tell me it's a joke, please tell me this isn't real

I started sobbing and held him close to me. I held his head in my hands.

Yao: p-please wake up...

I heard footsteps behind me, I turned to look at them. It was my other siblings, they started screaming

Yong soo: WHAT DID YOU DO TO KIKU?!

Yao: I- I didn't do anything i- I found him like this!

Siu Chun: brother why did you hurt kiku!?

Yao: I d-didnt hurt h-him!

Yong soo: your a monster brother!

I closed my eyes tightly and held kiku close to me

Yao: i- I swear I didn't do anything...

I put kiku down and covered my ears I heard them keep yelling at me. Please stop... I promise I didn't hurt him.

I jolted up and looked around

Yao: kiku?! KIKU?!

I grabbed my phone and called kiku, please be okay. I was shaking really bad and tried to control my breathing.

Kiku: こんにちは？ (Hello?)

Yao: a-are you okay?!

Kiku: はい, why wouldn't I be? (Yes)

Yao: i-i had a dream-

Kiku: I'm really busy can I call you back later?

Yao: oh... D-dont worry about me, you don't h-have to call me back either

I hung up and started crying, I pinched myself. Ow... I guess I'm actually awake then... I kept crying. I need to get out of this house for a bit. I got up and changed into a jacket and thicker pants. I put on my boots and grabbed a lantern. I walked out of the house and started walking to the gazebo. When I made it to the gazebo I saw someone standing there. Who would be out this late?

I walked up to the gazebo. Oh. It's Ivan. He turned and looked at me

Ivan: are you okay?

I shrugged a little

Yao: I could be better..

I sat down on the gazebo stairs. I gently set my lantern down next to me.

Ivan: sorry to hear that. What's wrong?

Yao: I just had a bad dream, it doesn't really matter I'm just being overdramatic.

Ivan: if it hurts you, you aren't being overdramatic.

I looked at him

Yao: y-yeah I guess... w-wanna hangout for a bit?

Ivan: oh, да (yes)

He sat down next me. I looked at my boots and watched as a little bit of snow was falling from the sky. For something so pretty it sure is irritating. I stared at the snow and shivered a little.

Ivan: are you okay?

I looked at him

Yao: oh, um yeah just....thinking.

Ivan: oh.

I looked away a little and glanced back at him, I saw him fidgeting his hands.

Yao: why are you out here so late?

Ivan: ....I don't know, I come out here a lot but I can't really find a reason anymore. It's like it's built in my brain to come here.

Yao: how long do you stay out here?

Ivan: i- I don't know I just go back inside whenever I think I should. Which sometimes hours. I stayed out here for a whole day before so..

Yao: wow... that's no good, I'll come back here every hour of the day to make sure you aren't doing that kinda thing haha

I saw him blush a little and hide his face, he's kinda cute.... I looked away. What am I saying- I blushed and stared at the ground

Ivan: d-did you move here with anyone?

I shook my head a little

Yao: nope, just me. Do you live with anyone?

Ivan: no...I never really had anyone to live with since I moved away from Russia.. even then I didn't have anyone..

Yao: oh..

I guess I'm gonna have to adjust to silence and cold to even though it was the complete opposite back in China... I miss my siblings. I started crying again.

[ Ivan pov ]

I looked at him and widened my eyes a little, how do I help him-? Should I help him? What do I say?! I stared at him. Do I hug him?! Hugs are nice right? Would he be offended if I tried to hug him? Ah I'm just gonna do it. I hugged him

[ Yao pov ] (main/og pov)

I flinched slightly and wiped my tears. I blushed and looked away. I felt him unwrap his arms around me.

Ivan: s-sorry I thought you would like a-a hug-

I looked at his red face as he pushed it into his fluffy white scarf.

Yao: u-um it's fine....... I think I'm gonna go back inside t-though

Ivan: o-oh, okay... See you later then..

Yao: right... See you later

I picked up my lantern and quickly walked back to the cabin, when I made it back I locked the door set my lantern down and changed back into pajamas. I flopped on the bed. I turned red and shoved my face into the pillows. That was so embarrassing.... I cried Infront of him and made myself look like a idiot. I grabbed one of the pillows and whipped it across the room. I'm such a idiot!

I sat up and pushed my face into my knees, all I do is screw things up, I hope he doesn't think im weird now... I sighed and laid back down on the bed, I dimmed the lamp next to the bed and stared at the ceiling. I don't wanna go back to sleep...