Release (BxB)

Who is Gavin?

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***Alexei's POV***

Staring at Seb as he lies in his bed is an endless task. Every movement, cry, shuttered breath brings me one step closer to breaking into tiny pieces. Yesterday morning, we were bantering just as we had our entire life. It felt good, natural. By lunchtime, after the fall, we had been on pins and needles waiting to see what damage was created by Sebastian's tumble in the garden.

"Don't cry Seb." I manipulate my fingers over the tears coming down Seb's Face.

"How are you feeling, babe? Don't cry. Please." I am exhausted, drained. This day has really taken all I had to give.

"Throbbing head." Sebastian admits.

"You took a hard fall." I remind Sebastian. I doubt he forgot but there is a possibility. I watch as Sebastian sadly rolls his eyes.

"Two steps forward, one step back." In an effort to reassure Seb, I quickly give a word of encouragement.

"Hurts. Too much." Seb barely breathes out.

"Yeah, they said you would experience a headache."  I feel even worse for my best friend than I already have. Hasn't he been through enough. He must be feeling the brunt of that accident in full force by now.

"No." Seb's statement confuses me.

"Here. It hurts here." Seb grabs my hand, dragging it across his heart. I immediately worry that more damage is present than we are aware.

"Babe, I know. I want to make it go away. I don't know how." I confess in a tortuous whisper. If I could take it all away, I would gladly trade places.

"Need him. Please. I will do anything." The plead in Sebastian's voice brings on the revelry. He misses Mark.

The sheer thought of Mark and Sebastian never reuniting, makes my heart ache deeply. I feel his pain in my bones.

"You're killing me Seb. Absolutely murdering me." I say as Sebastian lays his head on my forehead.

"I would do anything to bring him to you. I would give anything for you. Anything." I feel Seb's hot tears rolling down my cheek. Sebastian's hand reaches up to cup my neck. I climb into the bed with him. I need him to feel how much I love him. I would marry him here and now, fuck my preferences, if I could just make this all go away. I know that is a stupid thought. Desperation brings need for ridiculous solutions.

I let Seb hold tightly to me.

"I'm sorry." Seb's words vibrate over his trembling lips.

"Shut that pretty face. You don't need to apologize. I love you, Seb." I kiss his temple while holding tightly to his wrist.

"He's awake." Mrs. Angela sings softly as she walks back into the room. I smile slightly at the happiness she voices.

"Hi, Ma. Didn't mean to scare you." Sebastian's voice is small, almost feeble.

"Give an old woman a heart attack." Mrs. Angela playfully scolds her son. She is fit is a horse. There was no risk of that. I smile into Seb's hair, hiding my face before Angela thinks I am mocking her.

"Sorry." Seb turns his cheek away from me to give his mother his full attention. I continue to squeeze on him, grateful that we seem to have made it over another hurdle.

"Alex, you are smothering him. Off now. Go on boy." Mrs. Angela swats my butt. Causing me to start releasing my hold on her son. "Okay. Okay. Come get your love." I announce as I crawl out of the hospital bed.