𝐒𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐰𝐛𝐞𝐫𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬 & 𝐂𝐢𝐠𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐬𓂃 ִֶָ [𝐉.𝐉𝐊]

STRAWBERRIES & CIGARETTES [CHAPTER 22]

22| "If he doesn't come, it's not that stupid."

She leaves Jungkook's arm with a yank, breathing heavily. Jungkook stood there with wide eyes, processing everything which happened in the last minutes. She sniffed, walking here and there in agitation, her left hand on her waist.

With trembling hands she digs her hands in her black sweat pants, trying to find the toxic stick that gives her relief. She gulps when she couldn't find the Malboro in her pockets. Shadow bites the lower lips, her hands quivering and her lips trembling.

Jungkook looks at her with concern written over his face. He sniffs, reaching out for the pocket of his black jeans. She closes her eyes in frustration, smashing her head on the wall. Jungkook walks near her, hesitantly tapping on her shoulder.

She turns around, sweat beads glowing on her forehead. Her hoodie was drenched with sweat, as well as her hair. Jungkook shows her the pack of Cigarettes he bought some days ago.

She stares at Jungkook with a frown before snatching it from his hands. Shadow throws her fist in the air when she recalled that she has also forgotten the lighter in her house. Jungkook sighs before offering her matches to light her cigarette.

She quickly lit the match with trembling hands, lighting the cigarette. In haste, the cigarette fell from her fingers and before it could fall to the ground she quickly grabs it resulting in the burn of her palm.

Jungkook hisses but she ignores the burn. She turns around, peeling her mask from her mouth. Shadow place the toxic stick in her mouth, inhaling the smoke that could turn her lungs black—like her heart. The toxic smoke travels from her mouth towards her throat, spreading in her lungs, spreading warmth that relieves her stress.

She exhales the smoke, placing her forehead on the wall. Jungkook stares at her, leaning on the pole behind him. "How can someone kill themselves slowly by their own hands?" He ponders, starting at the now calm girl in front of him.

"What happened that she got so sick after seeing her brother?" 

"Is her brother her cause of misery?"

"Did he do something?... But he cares a lot."

People stare at both of them, whispering and gossiping about the duo standing there.

"Kids these days."

"Look at them!"

"Omg, she's craving drugs!"

"Look at her! She's so young and smokes."

Shadow ignores the taunts of people. She knew that bitches like to bark and she can't do anything to shut them up. The only thing she could do was ignore them as much as possible

Jungkook snaps out of his thoughts when she turns around as calm as ever. A smile tugs his lips when he saw the cold and intimidating aura surrounding her again. "Even though she's really bad when she's like this but I like her way better like this."

Shadow bites her lips before dashing out of the place, ignoring Jungkook at all costs. Embarrassment was an understatement for what she was feeling right now. Shadow never had a breakdown in front of someone she knows. How vulnerable she would have looked in front of him—that was the only thought running through her mind.

Shadow enters a calm neighborhood with no one around. She inhales the fresh air, exhaling it slowly. Her neighborhood was not like this. She wished she would have bought a house here but again...maybe it was all fate. Meeting Jungkook and all? She shakes her head, not wanting these weird thoughts in her head.

Suddenly, she fasten her pace when she heard footsteps following her. She knew it was Jungkook so she didn't turn around and kept walking at a fast pace.

[10 minutes later]

Shadow frowns, squinting her eyes when she heard no sound coming from the blabbering boy, only footsteps following her. She gulps, trying her best to stay calm. She doesn't slow her pace nor makes it fast. She didn't want to make it obvious that she got to know and is afraid of whoever is behind her.

Shadow decides to stay quiet, hoping she could see a person walking there but the streets had to be empty right now. She wasn't afraid of getting into a fight—she had many before but she doesn't know what weapon the man possess and she wasn't in the mood to get injured right now.

Shadow wasn't confident if it was Jungkook or some random guy who wants to get beaten by her. Suddenly, she halts and the person behind her halts as well. She takes a deep breath deciding to do something that could confirm her confusion.

"If he doesn't come, it's not that stupid."

Inhaling a deep breath, she raises her arm toward her mask, peeling it off from her mouth. She waits for a while but slow steps start to approach her.

Hm, do you think its Jungkook?
And if it's him
Will he be able to see her face?