𝗂𝗇𝗌𝗈𝗆𝗇𝗂𝖺 [ 범규 ]

07

[ breathless ]

I woke up in my bed as I groaned, forgetting that I was still in the hospital.

I took beomgyu's advice and finally let my body rest.

I guess I was glad I did because my therapist noted that I was doing better.

if I keep this up- I'll be able to go back home.

just like beomgyu said.

maybe beomgyu is right, i should try to sleep more so that I can leave.

I don't think I would've last long in this hospital without him.

I wanted to thank him.

out of all the days we have talked and hung out with each other.

today I really wanted to see him.

but he didn't show up to my room later that night.

it was already past 2 am.. the time when beomgyu usually comes into my room..

I stared at the clock in frustration as I felt tears slide down my face.

he probably got caught.. and it's my fault.

or he fell asleep..

or

...

he just doesn't want to be with me

as soon as I thought of that, my door slid open loudly, making me flinch again.

I felt breathless from crying into my pillow I blinked and rubbed my eyes.

it was beomgyu.

I jumped out of my bed as I hugged him tightly.

"beomgyu.." I muttered, my face buried in his shoulder.

he hugged me back

"I'm sorry I barely came.. the nurses were working around my room so it was hard to sneak out.." he explained.

"oh.. I thought it was because you-"

"we don't have much time, follow me" beomgyu said grabbing my hand as we ran out of my room.

instead of going down the stairs we went up instead.

"beomgyu- where are we going-" I asked out of breath from running up the stairs.

"the roof" he said as he pushed a door open and we were at the top of the hospital's roof.

we walked by the edge as i felt my lungs fill up.

the view of the city from the hospital's roof was breathtaking.

we both looked over at each other as we could see the city lights reflect off our eyes.

it looked like tiny stars were captured in our eyes.

"what do you think of the view?" he asked smiling at me.

"it's pretty but-" I said trailing off.

"you're prettier"

he looked down and smiled.

"I mean- yeah I do like the view but"

"what? you didn't mean what you said?" he asked pouting.

"no you're breathtaking- for someone who has eyebags" I teased him back.

"well played" he said walking off and laying on the ground.

I laid next to him as we watched the stars.

we talked for what seemed like hours.

we had a lot more in common than just our health.

and I loved beomgyu for not seeing me or treating me different because of it.

"remember when I was going to tell you something yesterday?" he suddenly asked.

"yeah?" I said looking over at him.

"yeah well.. I told you all that yesterday because.." he said going quiet.

"because of what?"

"I might be withdrawing from the hospital" beomgyu said.

"what-?!" I said as I sat up.

"I mean that's great but.." I said looking off to the side.

he sat up and looked at me.

"that's why I told you to sleep.. so hopefully you could get withdrawn from the hospital with me.." beomgyu said looking sad.

"hey.. it's okay" I said trying to stay positive for beomgyu "you're still with me right now"

"yeah.. that's true." he scoffed under his breath.

"I'll miss you of course but.." I said pausing "but I think it's for the best"

"but you're the first person I genuinely like being around.." beomgyu said staring down at his legs.

"beomgyu.."

"here" he said handing me a flower.

it was a stargazer lily.

"where did you get this-?" I asked.

"remember when I told you there was nurses around my room.." beomgyu said.

"well.. they were there because they noticed me missing when i went to the park to get it" he pouted.

"you went all the way to the park for me-?" I said holding the flower now.

"why wouldn't I?" he said.

"thank you beomgyu-" I said "I don't think I would've survived in this hospital without you.."

"you've survived this long without me, you're strong" he smiled.

I felt my heart race.

"I don't know how I'll be able to do it without you now.."

"you'll find a way.. I know you'll be okay without me" beomgyu said.

"I hope so.."

there was a silence as the two of us thought

"you do feel better now do you..?" beomgyu asked

"now I do"

he smiled at me as we heard the door to the rooftop open.

a janitor looked around confused as they took out a cigarette and lit it.

me and beomgyu took it as a chance to escape.

we made it back to my bedroom without being caught despite it being 5 am now.

we caught our breath as I began to laugh.

beomgyu looked over at me confused.

my laughter turned to crying.

"it's okay.. I'll stay here with you" he said sitting next to me on the floor.

"won't you get in trouble..?" I said wiping my tears.

"I don't care- I just want to be with you" beomgyu said.

"okay.. thank you beomgyu" I said.

[ 6 am ]

beomgyu was now on my bed with me as he read one of the books the nurse had left for me.

his voice was so smoothing that I couldn't help but feel sleepy.

and for once I didn't feel afraid of falling asleep.

I slowly closed my eyes as my head fell to the side.

beomgyu paused from reading as he noticed I had fallen asleep.

he closed the book and covered me with the blanket.

"goodnight .." he said as he rests his head next to mine.