Pockets In Her Dress (A Hailee Steinfeld gxg fanfic)

Christmas Disaster

Trigger warning: Mention of violence please read at your own risk.

Buck's POV:

"What do you mean everyone's not on duty tonight?" I'm currently on the phone with Bobby, good thing I called first before I buy groceries.

"Well, I'm currently out of town with the family, Evie is on vacation leave until after New Year's, and the rest of the crew are spending time with family. I know we have traditions but the chief really insisted for everyone from our team to take a break on the holidays, considering the accident that happened. I'm sorry Kiddo, if only I knew I would've asked you to come with us." Bobby replies, I sighed and told him that it's okay before hanging up.

I love Christmas, and sometimes I like being alone too, but being alone on Christmas? I mean it's not that I haven't spent it alone but knowing I have my chosen family to celebrate it with and now no one's here, it makes me sad. I tried asking the nursing home if I can stay the night but they have this policy and I'm not allowed to do that. So it's true? I'll be all alone? Griffin has followed Hailee on tour and they are currently far away, I decided to just grab myself some microwavable pizza, frozen fries, and ingredients to make myself some salad to munch on later. My all happy face has turned upside down, I hate being alone, I hate this feeling so much. It's like my parents all over again. I never seek for therapy or even open up this feeling to anyone else. Maybe I should? I really don't know but right now all I know is I'll be alone on Christmas Eve.

Hailee and I have agreed to exchange gifts when she comes home before New Year's eve, Griffin is gonna come pick me up and fly together to New York for Hailee's performance for the countdown. Tomorrow I'll be visiting Nana for our annual Christmas Day date, but it's just really different when it's the night before Christmas.

It's now 10 pm and I'm still slouched on the living room flipping through every channel, gosh it's all Christmas movies. I decided to go to Netflix and started to rewatch one of my favorite show The Witcher, when suddenly my phone starts ringing. Hailee's facetiming with me.

"Talk to me it's Buckley." I said as I answer the phone and see Hailee wearing her christmas pj's and a santa hat and she shows me Teenie and Brando wearing cute little doggo santa hats.

"Hey babe! Oh were you sleeping? Did I wake you?"

"Nooo just laying on the couch watching tv, anyways how's the snow there? Is it cold?"

"It is a little cold here actually, I just hope you're here to cuddle with me. But I know you'll be with me for New Year's eve! Anyways why aren't you cooking food? What time is it?"

I sighed deeply knowing that this question will be brought up.

"I have microwavable pizza and some stuff here." I said nervously not even looking directly at my phone.

"Buck what's wrong?"

She asks worriedly, I just shake my head and sighed.

"No one's gonna come with me tonight for Christmas Eve.. everyone's not available" I could see how her smile turns into a frown. "BUT! Don't worry, I'll be on my way to Nana first thing. I already have everything prepared and it's not like I haven't spend Christmas Eve alone so." Hailee takes a second to process and she then smiles again.

"Well, if you want we can FaceTime for the rest of the night?"

"Baby it's fine, enjoy your Christmas with the fam okay? You need to rest as well, and send my regards to everyone okay?" Hailee sends some flying kisses to me and this made me smile.

"Okay, but next time I'll make sure you won't be alone for Christmas okay? I love you bubba! I miss you see you soon! "

"I love you to Lee"