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-5-

!!!Trigger warning ahead!!! If you do not approve stop at 'end of flashback'

-Link-

As Caleb goes to lay on his bed I sit on it. I was going to say something, but he was already asleep. I checked the time and it was clearly 10 pm.

Might as well go somewhere because I can't sleep.

I grabbed my headphones and my phone and a hoodie just in case it got colder. Thankfully it was cool, but I fear it would get colder.

I plugged my headphones into my phone and played my music. Since my phone was on shuffle All I Want by A Day To Remember started to play. I like this song in particular because it's soft and it has more meaning to the song.

They're mostly considered 'screamo' because of the way they sound and look, but like any other band, they're just sweet people who care about their fans.

I really dislike all that rap music. It was just stupid and had zero meaning to it. Unlike my music, the ones that help us. Our saviors.

As the song started to play, it brought memories that I didn't want to remember and some that made me sick.

I sat down near a big tree about half a mile away from the camp site. The tears started to spill as I heard the music speak to me. I don't know if Caleb will ever accept me. Or if I'll ever see him again.

He made me feel okay.

~flashback~

"Come on Link. You're going to be late." My mum started to yell at me.

"I'm going mum!" I yelled back.

Today was the day I was going to the US. To live with my aunt. Meaning a small new fresh start. I was going to be away for only a month but that was enough to get away from all the yelling.

You see, my mum and dad aren't the best on terms now. My dad just spent all of our money on drugs and alcohol. My mum wasn't okay with that.

"Do you have all your things honey?" My mum asked me poking her head into my room.

"Yeah. I have everything now." I said closing the suitcase.

Since my dad was an alcoholic and drug addict, he's come home and yelled at us, beat my mother and my older brother and I as well.

But my mum didn't want to call the cops on him because she's loved him to much it would kill her.

"Come on sweet heart, you need to catch that plane." My mum said snapping me out of my bubble. She grabbed the suit case and my hand and we quickly ran out the door. I was leaving without my father knowing.

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Once we made it to the airport we got it did what we had to do, and made it 30 minutes before the gate opened.

"Do I just have to go? Why can Jason, or you, or both of you come along? We can leave the scumbag there and we can have fresh start. Together." I said pleading looking into my mother's eyes, trying to reason with her.

The tears started to spill as she began, "I've told you. As much I want to leave, I can't your father will come and find me. And that would be putting us in danger. But you know Jason, he's not coming because he's building his life. This is for you my dear. It's all for you." She finishing, pulling me into a tight hug.

I never wanted this. I wanted my father to change. I've wanted a normal life. That's all I've ever wanted. That's all I ever needed.

~end of flashback

By now I was in tears. "I miss you mummy. I'm doing this for you, Jason and me. I'm doing this for us."

I needed something to take the pain that I felt now. A sharp metal friend.

I stood up and quickly ran back into the cabin, that I shared with Caleb. I assumed he was asleep, since he was faced the other was.

I ran to my bunk and went through my bag. Looking for a small container that kept them. My blades.

I left my bag open along with my headphones on the bed, but I took my phone.

I went into the bathroom, locking the door behind me. I slid down the door.

I cried silently, taking my hoodie off and throwing it across the room. I forcefully pulled my sleeves up and put the blade in between the finger tips on my other arm.

Was I really going to do this? Was I really going to break a promise that I've made to all the band members I've met?

No I can't brake it.

I got up and threw the blade in the toilet, flushing it, as I was supposedly using the bathroom. I quickly washed my hands then my teeth, fixed my hair and wiped the tears away.

I walked out the bathroom and laid in ny bed, slowly falling asleep as the darkness consumed me.

A/N well.. Umm that was something.. but I, uh, hoped you liked this extremely upsetting chapter. Hopefully it'll get better.

~xo Evii ❤️