There is a frantic desperation in my bones
And a faint buzz in my ears
Please! I pledge everything fond to me
Just don't ask me of my dears'
Again the desperation of gazillion words
Sets a dead hollow in the heart
A pit in the stomach opens when I see you
The lump in my throat can be art
My legs shake from the shoulder's weight
The sweat rushing in cold
My face I wish was hidden under a veil
Unfortunately I am acclaimed yours
Yet there is just the suffocation of unsent texts
And of the words unhailed
Would it have been better if I had said them?
Maybe we won't be so frail
Nevertheless it still amazes me how the two of you
Unrelated and one vicarious
Can make me burst into cold sweat and cry
One was my mistake
And one my heart's desire
One was my deepest secret
To the other I'm a beautiful liar
Dichotomy must have favored me
Leaving me to burn in my fire
I am awake in the night because of them both
I am both a cozener and a sinner dire
