Trust

Chapter Six

Shakyra Smalls

A couple of weeks in and I was just enjoying everything. I enjoyed my classes. I enjoyed my classmates. My roommates were cool. Although we were already friends before sharing space, we still had an organic energy that made for harmony between us. Every weekend we'd all chill out together in the common space and hang out, until Ketara dipped out with Louis and Justine disappeared with Kofi. Normally that left me and Lichelle to hang out until one or both of us got tired.

With much in perspective, my friend had been missing even while we chilled out downstairs. I thought she might've turned up before the others left but she was missing in action. I'd gotten sad once Ketara looked at her watch and faked a yawn. I rolled my eyes because she was always bad at announcing that she was going to cut out to find Louis. Justine smoothly made the announcement every time, but it made me giggle. Honestly, as fine was Kofi was, I'd be as unapologetic. My thoughts had turned and swirled until Trevante popped up in my thoughts and I instantly missed him.

I was thinking about the night we came to our understanding. It had been what I needed at the time. Still, I kind of wondered if those terms still meant anything now. Senior year had been kind of hard for me because there were girls that were still vying for his attention. While Trevante's presence alone had kept quite a few boys from trying to date me, some tried. As I was still trying to get over Wendell's treatment of me, I wasn't in the right mind space for anybody. Being alone was the best idea for me.

We never got back to our closeness from that time period and some days it made me sad. Still, I knew it was best because we might've ended up together come hell or high water. I didn't want the complications and neither did he. It was nights like the one I was having where I missed him.

I picked up my phone, preparing to send him a text and stopped before I could gather my nerve. I hadn't seen him but in passing since we settled in this school but knew it would make more sense to let him come to me. I bit my lip however and shook my head, blaming Lichelle's absence for my thoughts. I chuckled at my pettiness and grabbed my bag, getting ready to head upstairs to my room.

That was when I bumped into Trevor on the way out. He smiled and I was reminded of how cute he was back when we'd gone to school.

"What's up, gorgeous?"

I smiled as Trevor pulled me into a hug. Ketara told me that he reached out to make nice with her and I was tickled at hearing the news. I had denied him a relationship years ago because of his treatment of my friend. I saw easily that he just didn't want any other excuses but at the present time, his timing might be his enemy this time around. I can't lie and say I'm not attracted to him, but I wasn't jumping out of my body to be with him either.

"I was just heading back upstairs. All of my crew disappeared on me." I answered,

"Why not just chill with me, then?" Trevor questioned, "Louis kicked me out over Kiki, and they said you were still here, so I was going to just kill some time with you."

I rolled my eyes, "That's because they're corny."

"I'm not gonna disagree. You hungry? Thirsty? We can make a run to grab something to eat."

"Yeah, why not?" I said, "I could go for some ice cream."

Trevor and I walked through Washington Square park, enjoying the ambience of the evening. I sneaked a peak at him and was amused that he still looked the same. I wondered if he was overall the same person.