Babe, Can I Call?

6. The End

There was a long, uncomfortable silence.
Both of us knew what was about to happen.

But where do you even start? Ten years, ten awesome years for the most part, how do you even begin to end that?

'I don't know what to say right now' I said in a weak, regrettable tone.

'Do you even love me anymore?' Matty said, as he sat in his towel (still a bit wet from his bath).

'Of course I love you, but it's hard to explain' I replied.

'In what way? Why is it hard to explain?' Matty asked.

There was a long pause in between.

'I feel like things have changed a lot, like I don't feel like we're a couple anymore and it's felt like that for months and months, at least for me. I really love you, more than anyone on this planet, but I'm just not IN love with you anymore, and it kills me to say that'.

Matty took in a deep breath, and his facial expressions were heartbreaking. It killed me and I'd felt like this was coming for a long time, so god knows how he felt. This was totally new information to him.

'I understand' he managed to say in a broken voice.

'I'm so sorry'.
I meant that wholeheartedly, it wasn't how I wanted things to go. We were engaged for 9 years, I imagined marrying him from the moment I met him. Even through our ups and downs, I never didn't want to marry him.

We both sat there and just completely broke down, we could have filled a bath with the tears that were shed.

'So, you've felt like this for a long time? Why didn't you say anything?' Matty asked.

'I kind of did, time just passed by and it felt like we were housemates/best friends. We haven't slept together in so long and anytime I tried to bring it up with you, I got shut down, you didn't want to talk about it'.

I'd felt so lonely for so long and I just didn't know how he didn't feel there was a difference in our relationship.

Matty nodded his head slowly while looking down, still teary.

'What have I been doing all this time?
I spend so much time on my phone and spending money on stuff that's just not important, and yet I'd give it all up for you'. He said.

While I felt awful hearing that, I knew that even if it did change, it wouldn't be for long.

I needed the toilet, so I got up and headed to the bathroom, full of tears.

I noticed I had a couple of messages from Blaine.

'Cassie are you okay?'

'I'm getting worried now!'

I replied to him;
'I'm okay, but I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy, it's the worst thing'.

'Oh god, it's actually happening? Are you okay?'
He replied quickly.

'Not really but I will be, it's just really tough. If you don't hear from me for a while then you know why'. I said back.

'Okay, I understand. I'm here for you though, okay? I promise it will be okay'.

I put my phone in my pocket and sat back on my bed.

Neither me or Matty knew what to say. This was undoubtedly the worst thing I've ever had to go through, and I'd been through some real shit.

'I'll sleep downstairs tonight' Matty said.

'You don't have to' I replied. Realistically I knew that was for the best, but I've always tried to do the nice thing.