Babe, Can I Call?

10. A Change Of Heart

'No, why?'

I replied. I knew that wasn't the truthful answer but I was scared. I should have handled this a lot differently.
In fact, I should have said from the moment I saw it 'I'm really sorry but I had a really bad gut feeling and I went with it, and it was right, you need to work out what the hell you want' and I should have left.

But it was too late now. And I was so scared to lose him despite what I'd found out.

'Okay, are you sure? Because I have a way of finding things out'. Dammit, he's either winging it in the hope I will tell him, or he knows somehow.

But I was too deep in at this point, I couldn't go back on it now.

'I'm sure' I said.

'Okay, I haven't got anything to hide anyway' he replied.

All I could think was you want to check your messages again because I think you do.

But I just couldn't say anything else now.

I was worried. Was he going to end it all?

'Are we okay?' I said to him.

'Yeah we are, let's just forget about it and draw a line under it okay?' He responded.

I mean that was sort of a win win for us. But not really because I knew that he was speaking to her in a way that he shouldn't be and I just had to ignore it and be okay with knowing this.

'Let's forget it, what are you up to right now anyway gorgeous?🥰' he was back to how he was before.

'I'm out Christmas shopping for a certain someone 👀🥰' I replied.

'You better not be shopping for me!💜' he said.

'I mean, I've got some bits for you of course, but you shouldn't be getting me stuff!💜'. He continued.

'Well I've ordered you a few bits online and I'm just hunting around at the moment for any other bits 🥰' I replied.

I was so glad we were back to normal, but I knew in the back of my mind, I'd be thinking about him messaging her and it was really getting to me.

'So when did you want to come to mine for our little early Christmas? 💜' he asked.

Today was Saturday.

'How about Tuesday? Christmas is next Saturday so I think that would be good?🧡'. I responded.

'That sounds good to me! Can you stay as well?🥹'. He asked.

'I won't promise anything but you know I'll try my best :)' I said.

Tuesday came around very quickly. My best bet was to ask Hayley if she could get me to "stay at hers". She was completely okay with that.

I had a huge bag of presents to get into her car and I had no idea how I was going to get this past Matty without him being confused. Luckily he'd gone into the kitchen to pour a drink after Hayley arrived and I quickly put the big bag of presents in her car.

We stayed inside for a bit as she'd never met Matty so they ended up in a conversation for about half an hour so I ended up sorting my wet hair out as I'd not long had a shower.

I got dressed and brushed my hair, then went downstairs.

'Okay, are you ready?' Hayley asked.

'Yep - just need my backpack and that's it' I replied.

I said goodbye to Matty.

'Have fun and I'll see you tomorrow' he said as we hugged.

I shut the door behind me and excitedly got into the car.