Chatterbox ❥ Malum [SEQUEL to Mute ❥ Malum]

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I inhaled deeply.

"Four years ago, before I knew you guys, it was just a normal day, well that's what I thought. I was just sat on the bus on my way to school keeping myself to myself like I did every day but this time it was different. People were noticing me, and not in a good or nice way. They kept giving me dirty looks, they kept looking at me, staring at me. Staring at me as though I was something from a different planet. And I knew exactly why."

"Why?" Vic asked hastily.

I closed my eyes and inhaled deeply again.

"I kissed Luke."

Their gasps made it obvious that they were shocked, I didn't need to open my eyes to see their faces.

"The day before in Music we were partnered up and our project was, we had to write a song. We were really close friends, believe it or not" I chuckled bluntly. "On the day we got the project me and Luke were ecstatic, we couldn't wait to get to my house and start jamming and writing." My voice has started to go shaky.

"Mike, you don't have to continue if you don't want to" Calum said with worried eyes. I shook my head.

"When we got to mine we started jamming and he kept saying how much he loved my voice and I kept blushing. Luke noticed and he launched himself at me, pinned me to the floor and started laughing calling me cute and then he stopped and we just looked into each others eyes and I leaned in." I sighed

"As soon as my lips touched his he tensed up and pushed me away, I didn't know what to do. I just kept mumbling 'I'm sorry' but he just kept staring at me, disgust in his eyes. He shouted at me harshly, 'what the fuck do you think your doing' and I just whimpered into the corner. He started to scare me. His face was going so red, so so red. I didn't know what to do, he came closer to me and my breathing started to go heavy. I begged him not to tell my dad about me being gay, and about the kiss. He just laughed harshly. And then my dad came in asking what all the shouting was about.
He told my dad. My dad made Luke leave, he followed Luke downstairs and when I heard the door slam shut, I hear very heavy, angry footsteps come up the stairs."

"D-did he. D-did he hit you-u" Ashton choked out, everyone looked like they were going to burst into tears.

I nodded.

"The next day, when everyone was staring on the bus, I just knew that Luke told everyone. My thoughts were answered when I stepped off the bus, Alan - one of Luke's other friends pushed me onto the floor and told me to 'kill myself because I was a disease' I started crying, and in the corner of my eye I saw Luke laughing to himself."

"I had gotten used to the bullying by now. It was Luke, Alan, Phil and Zack who continuously beat me up everyday. And then the music project was due and Luke phoned me asking me what I was doing, I honestly thought he had forgotten about what had happened between us, but then he told me he wasn't going to be in the next day because of football so if I don't get us an A then he will punish me even worse than usual."

"I was so nervous about performing this. When I introduced myself I kept stuttering, which made the whole class laugh at me. I took a deep breath and started sing the song that I wrote called "Wrapped Around Your Finger" through out the time I was performing the whole class was silent, but when I stopped everyone erupted into laughter. Even the teacher let out a chuckle. Then a girl shouted out 'what the fuck? You call that singing you sound like a cat being strangled' and everyone started shouting hurtful things at me, and people told me to just 'stop singing and speaking all together because I sounded so stupid and ridiculous. So I did."

"After that I just became a shell, I didn't eat much, I didn't talk, I started failing school. I became depressed and started hurting myself. I just couldn't look in the mirror anymore." I let a tear fall.

"But I'm happy now, I promise. I met you guys and I have an amazing boyfriend who loves me, and I know Luke still picks on me but I just don't let it get to me that much anymore."

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Note: anything that is said here I do not mean, Wrapped Around Your Finger is probably my favourite 5SOS song and Michaels voice is like an angel so don't take anything serious.