Alternate | Ssundee Crew AU

14. When I died I realised I loved

a/n Same deal as last time except a few days after last chapter

Henwy stared up at the ceiling. It was a change from the infirmary, but it was still a ceiling. He had stared at ceilings for several nights now. He honestly slept better recovering, even if was always sleeping then.

A pain in my chest. Lethal. Someone just knocked out the guy who killed me. Sigils? Why? Thanks. He picks me up. Crying. Don't cry. Makes me sad. Ian. Quiet. Doesn't want to lose anyone else as well. Nico. Perform the procedure. What? Sleepy.

Pain. Something's dragging me down. Down. Down. Don't cry. I'm here. I feel better now. I'll wake up soon, I promise. I love you.

That was a wake-up call. Henwy hadn't realised that he liked Sigils. He was now in bed, scrolling on his phone, trying to learn something new. He knew he liked guys. And he did have a crush on a girl. Once. But bi didn't feel right.

He was currently anonymously searching through any queer forums he could find. He wasn't pan, omni, or poly. None of them fit. Suddenly he came across a new definition. Homoflexible.

Homoflexible or Anisosexual is used to describe an individual who is generally gay/homosexual (vincian or lesbian) and primarily experiences attraction to the same gender/similar genders, but has very occasional tendencies to be attracted to other genders.

Another common way to use this term is individuals that are homosexual, but from time to time can experience attraction to the opposite binary gender. When they do experience attraction to the opposite gender, the attraction often has nothing to do with the individual's gender, only the individual.

Individuals who identify as homoflexible may identify with this label only, or they may also identify as gay or lesbian. Homoflexible individuals may also identify as or be considered bisexual or otherwise multisexual, however for some homoflexibles, their attraction to the opposite binary gender is so rare that they do not consider bisexual to be an accurate description of their orientation in most situations. Its counterpart is Heteroflexible. cont. reading on https://lgbt-pride.fandom.com/wiki/Homoflexible

That sounds a lot like me. It made sense to him. He didn't like the label bisexual, but he did occasionally like girls. By occasionally he meant once. He liked a girl once. He also liked the label gay. That was ok. He know needed to decide what he was going to do with this knowledge.

He groaned. There was no way he was telling Sigils without some backing. He had to tell Ian. Knowing Ian, he would guess immediately and make fun of him in a supportive way. Being one of the youngest would make it even harder. He groaned again.

The next day he was at Ian's door, knocking. Ian opened the door.
"You look rough. Have you been sleeping well?"
"Hello to you too. Since I was not planning on discussing my sleeping habits, I will not comment."
"Worth a shot. What did you come to talk to me about? Have you secretly brought a dragon to life?"
"What?! No! I just wanted to say, uh, to say-"
"Get on with it Henwy." He said, not unkindly.

He took a deep breath.
"I'm gay. Homoflexible." A look of almost deja vu crossed his face.
"Homoflexible?"
"It means, uh, here, read this." He said passing the phone. Ian read it, a look of understanding on his face.
"That's cool! Who do you like?" Henwy was caught off guard.

"What do you mean 'Who do I like?'"
"It means, you have a crush on someone which is why you told me. Who is it?"
"I, uh, I'm not telling." Damn it. Ian would take that as an invitation to guess.
"I don't need you to. It's Sigils." Henwy stares at him. "I take it I was right."
"Yes, but how?" He recovers.
"Process of elimination. I don't think you would tell me and it be a girl, which leaves guys. I don't think you would tell me if it was me, and you aren't close to anyone else but Sigils."

"You're too smart."
"Nah. Who else knows?"
"Nobody else."
"Ok then. I won't tell anyone else."
"Thanks. Bye!"
"Bye! Don't forget, ask them out!" He yells as Henwy starts walking away.