I came back to reality with the sound of the bell and slowly walked in, taking my seat, the whole class watching me as I took each step. I sat down feeling like some kid whose puppy just died with every eye showing some degree of sadness or remorse.
I sighed and ignored the eyes for a good solid 2 seconds before I muttered out "stop it...STOP FUCKING STARING" screaming at the end causing the class to jump and look away even the teacher who quickly scrambled to get class started.
"O-okay class today we are learning about..." the words seemed to fade out as I ran my fingers over a carving in the wood of the desk, tears welling up in my eyes, my breath hitching and catching in my throat.
I quickly wiped them away as I felt a hand touch my shoulder gently a gentle voice saying "I miss her too".
I nodded and turned to see who it was only to see that who ever it was had sat down, rest of the class wasn't much help either with everyone acting like nothing was happening.
I didn't pay any attention to class too focused on Katrina as my fingers traced around the carving on the desk. The teacher understood too not push me to listen or focus rather just writing on the white board some useless crap. 'Then again everything seemed useless to me now that Katrina is dead' I mulled this over in my head, 'I mean hell why live when my one is dead?' I asked myself not really expecting an answer to just pop up and reality didn't let me down pure silence greeting me with more sadness and no answer.
The bell rang with its shrill noise and the class seemingly in one complete thought got up at the same time and left besides me. I took a bit longer to admire the carving one more time before grabbing my bag and heading out the door. I was just about to go into the hall way too before I felt a hand stop me and my teachers voice say "wait...here you go" and he pushes the desk top into my hand with the carving on it. "I'm sure she would have wanted you to have that" he mumbles as a new set of tears brim up in my eyes, my hand tightening around the carving as I walk out into the hallway.
I avoided Katy's class as I held the carving of Katrina smiling with messages of love from the all the class around her in my arms. The biggest message of them all was mine "KATRINA BABY MY LOVE IS YOURS ALWAYS AND FOREVER!" that bended around the carving of her.
