Lose My Mind *Jay McGuiness Fan Fic* (FINISHED)

Chapter 2

*Week Later*

Julia POV

Its been a week, Jay and all he boys have come by each day to check on me and telling me a little about myself, and my life. I still can't remember anything. But my Doctor has recommended that I return  to my everyday routine to see if I started to remember anything. Hopefully I do, because I know how much its hurting everyone, oh and I got a lot going on and I feel so worried, because according to my doctor, I'm almost 2 months pregnant, but not just that I have 4 kids, and I'm married to Jay. Jay McGuiness, whom happens to be in a famous band. 

I started packing all my belongings, an Ipod, my cellphone, and other things the girls, Nareesha, and Kelsey had brought over thinking they might help me remember somethings. My cellphone had many picture of Jay, and 4 little kids that I later learned were my..our, my and Jay's kids, some of the boys at concerts, the girls, and some guy Jeremy, who's suppose to be my best friend. If he's my best friend why wasn't he here? I asked Jay he said that Jeremy was busy with work. But I felt like something was off, when I mentioned Jeremy, Jay got a hurt/angry look. It felt like they were hiding something but I let it go.

I logged on Twitter, Jay helped me log in, I guess at some point in time I gave him my twitter information. I didn't tweet anything I just kinda creeped on what was going on. A few tweets got my attention.

@JayTheWanted: Wish I Could Give You, Life in a Silver Plater. 

Which had a few tweets from fans that made me smile.

@KIMMY_TW: @JayTheWanted Hope @JulsMcGuiness gets better soon.  #Prayers4JulsMcGuiness

@FeriaTW: @JayTheWanted Can't wait to see you smile but until then #Prayers4JulsMcGuiness :) <3

I went to my mentions and read a few and once again another one caught my attention.

@Amy_D3: Hope My Friend @JulsMcGuiness gets better soon.

I couldn't help but smile I couldn't remember this people but they seemed to love me beyond compare, but I wasn't sure if they loved me for who I was or because I was married to Jay. I felt tears roll down my cheek as I sat down on the only chair in the room.

"Are you okay?" I looked up but my vision was blurred due to the tears. I quickly blinked them away.

"Yeah." I looked up to see Jay. I smiled.

"Are you ready to go home and see the kids?" he must of sensed my unease," Its okay thy won't judge you they are 3, 2, and 1 year olds." He smiled at the thought of 'our' kids. He reached his hand out to me.

"I guess there's no better time than the present?" I said, he smirk. "What did I say something funny?" 

"No it's just that my mum used to say that to us all the time, the last time she told 'us'" he pointed and himself and I,"was on the day of our wedding referring to start the baby making process." I blushed, which made him laugh harder.

"Come on let's get home before Max comes by with the kids, so you can get used to your surrounding." He said as he reached over and grabbed my things in one hand and tried reaching for my hand with his free one. Don't get me wrong he was cute, and dorky and a super adorable way but I just didn't see it, I couldn't give him false hope. I settled my hand in my sweater pockets.

"Alright." a mixture of sadness, and understanding crossed his face. He started walking towards the door.

"Umm..Jay?" he turned to look at me,"Thank you, for helping me and understanding." He just nodded and kept walking, I noticed a tear roll down his cheek but I didn't know what to do, so I did nothing.

Jay POV

"Umm..Jay?" I turned to look at her,"Thank you, for helping me and understanding." I just nodded and turned to keep walking. A tear rolled down my cheek, I couldn't help it. How could this happen. Well at least this way she's still here with me, she could've been somewhere else with him...It hurt just thinking of the day that brought all of this. Maybe this happened to give me a second chance so I could make her love me once again, maybe just maybe.

*FlashBack 2 Weeks Ago*

~arguement J-Jay Ju-Julia~

Ju- 'I don't love you anymore Jay.' The tears stung my eyes.

J- 'Juls don't do this to us, to the kids. We've been together for 4 years now.'

Ju- 'Yes Jay 4 years that have only taught me unhappiness, but he has brought that back into my life." Those words were like daggers in my heart.

J- 'It looks to me like you've already made your mind up. It would've been less painful if you would've ran off and hadn't told me anything.'

Ju- 'Well I wanted to give you a chance to say good bye to the kids.' I saw red I couldn't hold my anger back anymore.

J- 'No, If you want to leave you leave but you are NOT taking MY KIDS to live a harlot life!' I saw hurt cross her face but she hadn't cared about my feelings when she said she didn't love me, and I was past caring at the moment. I watched as she went to grab Alberta, our youngest, I pushed Juls out of the way. 'You ARE NOT taking MY KIDS. LEAVE!' 

Ju- ' Can I at least give them a hug and a kiss?' she pleaded.

J- ' No LEAVE!' I said. I started to hear Anthony, our second youngest, crying for me. I turned around and picked him up and tried to calm him. She walked over and I hissed,' LEAVE You WHORE!' With that she ran out with tears in her eyes. As I settled down with now four crying toddlers, I heard tires screech and someone scream. Panic entered my body. I settled the kids down and ran out the flat's door and saw Julia laying in front of the car.

*END OF Flashback*

God I hope I can make her love me once again. I don't know what I'll do if I lose her a second time. Should I tell her? I don't know. Bloody fucking day Jeremy ever crossed out paths. If only I could go back in time. I hope I can get her to love me once again.

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