Lose My Mind *Jay McGuiness Fan Fic* (FINISHED)

Chapter 7

Jay POV

Its been a week since Juls came back to the ranch with the girls, I can't stop smiling. Juls and the girls are resting at the moment, I could just sit here and watch them all day. The door opened and Jayne peeked in.

"Jay you need to come down and eat." She whispered, causing Juls to stir in her sleep. I smiled. I nodded, she silently closed the door once again. I stood up from my seat and walked over to her and kissed her forehead, she smiled in her sleep. I chuckled, as I walked out of the room.

"No you can't come by at the moment...yes...yes..I understand your concern but her husband is..no you can not." I heard Bety's voice harshly whisper into her phone as I walked by her office, the door was slightly ajar, so I stood outside the door listening in on her conversation, wrong I know but something told me he had something to do with Juls.

"No..Jeremy listen to me.." my hands became fist,"..no you can't come by at the moment wait until she talks to him..then if she wants you here...yes..I'll let her know...of course..okay good bye." She hung up and let a breathe out and started walking towards the door, so I walked away and towards the dining table. Everyone was there. I sat in the only space left next to Tom. Shortly after I sat down Bety arrived with a forced smile on her face, she sat next to Max. We all ate in silence. Afterwards I thank Maria for the food and Bety, and excused myself.

My thought kept taking me back to the conversation between Jeremy and Bety. A conversation I half listened to, a conversation that I wasn't suppose to know about. Nevertheless thoughts kept on clouding my mind could Jeremy be the girls dad? why does he want to come here for? Had Juls been talking to him? Has he been by her side during the pregnancy? What could all this all mean?

 My mind was still rambling with question as I walked back into Juls room to find her breast-feeding  Jayne, yes we named our first born daughter after Jayne, it was Juls idea and I couldn't get her to change her mind, so Jayne Marie McGuiness it was, and Maureen Liliah McGuiness, something my mum was glad and teary about. I watched from my spot by the door as Juls cradled her and feed her. 

"You can come closer if you wanna see her." Julia whispered as she turned to look at me, I slowly peeled myself away from the door closing it behind me as I walked over and crouched in front of her. She just smiled at me, I ran my finger lightly along lil' Jayne's face, as she suckled on Juls breast. I sighed, a smile crept on my face. Julia reached over and placed a hand on the side of my face. I looked up into her eyes.

"I love you." I sighed.

"I love you too." She smiled. " You know they are yours right?" I raised an eyebrow at her statement." You are their dad, Jeremy's not-" I put a finger on her lips silencing her word.

"That was all I needed to know." She smiled as tears ran down her face, I leaned in kissing her tears away, she moved so that our lips collided with each others. I smile into the kiss, slowly I ended the kiss. I looked down at my beautiful daughter, as she slept, Juls slowly stood and placed her back in the crib next to her sister. I smiled. Julia straighted herself as she turned to look at me. I stood from my crouched position to sit on the bed as she walked over ad sat next to me resting her head on my shoulder.

"Have you spoken to Jeremy?" I voiced a worry that I had and that kept nagging my mind.

"Yes." Was all she said. 

"About?"

"My pregnancy, worries I had, the past, and questions I had that only he could answer."

"Oh."

"Yeah. He help me realize many things.." She slowly sat up and turned to face me," among those things, he help me see how much I love you." She leaned over to place a soft kiss on my lips, I smiled." And how much I love my kids, and how imperfectly perfect our life was, and hopefully will be, that is if you will still have me?" 

"I love you so much I can't see my life without you." I was about to lean in to kiss her when Nathan, Tom, and Max, and Bety decided to barge in.

"I told you!" Nath squealed.

"Darn it." Both Tom and Max said in unison. Bety just giggled, as both Tom and Max handed a couple bills over to Nath. 

"So why are you guys barging in without knocking. Not that it doesn't surprises me." Juls asked them.

"Oh yea..umm..Jeremy's here."Tom whispered.

"I told him not to come. I swear." Bety stated. A concerned look crossed Juls face.

"Its okay, let him come in." I said, as I smiled at Juls, she mirrored the  same smile back.

"Really!?" Everyone voiced.

"Yes, really." I stated once again, they all nodded as they left the room.

"Are you sure?" Juls questioned.

"Yes I'm sure I love you and I trust you." I kissed her forehead as I walked out. Jeremy passed by me congratulating me on the girls, I shook his hand as I walked over to the couch and sat next to the boys.

Juls POV

I sat there as I watched Jay leave the room, his word kept playing in my mind. Yes I'm sure I love you and I trust you...I love you and I trust you. I sighed as thee door opened and Jeremy walked in. He was holding a couple of bags and a big balloon that said It's a Girl! and with a marker he had added 'x2'. I smiled. He sat next to me in the exact same spot that Jay had been a couple of minutes ago.

"How are you feel?"- Jeremy

"I'm good. How about you?"-Juls

"Have you told him yet?"-Jeremy

"That he's the father? Yes. About the past between me and you? not yet. I just don't know how e's going to take it. I don't know if I'm ready for him to hate me that much, I mean he knows that after I caught him making out with that girl a while back I ran to you. But he doesn't know that I was the first that cheated before he did." He just nodded and understanding clouded his eyes. He smiled, causing his dimples that had drawn me to him the first time to show up on his face.

"Wanna see the girls?" I asked.

"Sure. What are  their names?" He asked as he ran his finger along Maureen's face.

"This is Jayne Marie McGuiness, and she is Maureen Liliah McGuiness."

"They are so beautiful, just like their mother." I blushed at his words.

"Thank you Jeremy." He kissed my cheek.

"You know I did and still love you." I sighed.

"I'm sorry but I love Jay and I want to take my life back." Now it was his turn to sigh. A sad smile painted his face.

"I understand." He turned to leave, but I placed an hand on his arm. He looked at my hand and back at my face with hope in his eyes.

"I'm sorry it all ended like this, and I know that even if I asked to stay friends it wouldn't work out. So all I'm trying to say is that you will someday find that girl that will love you. And will be able to see the nice, smart, sexy guy you are, and you deserve someone that will love you no matter what." He smiled at my word.

"I thought I had found her already..I thought that girl was you." I bit the inside of my cheek.

"I'm sorry." Was all I could muster.

"I know. I'm sorry too." With that he walked out leaving the balloon and the bags on the table by the door. I watched him leave my life once and for all. It pained me to know that I had caused anyone pain, but it had to be done one way or another. I finally mustered the courage to face everyone else. I opened the door and walked out into the living room to face everyone, and most importantly face the love of my life, my husband, my klutz, My Jay McGuiness. 

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Hello Darlings,

I know this might of been short but it made the point I was trying to make hopefully. Well What are you're thoughts? Like or not? Well I love you all. Comment, Vote and Fan. Until next update! 

-Mona Travieza