Lose My Mind *Jay McGuiness Fan Fic* (FINISHED)

Chapter 3

Julia POV

Its been almost 2 months, and I still can't remember anything. But my tummy keeps growing. Jay seems so happy about the baby but for some reason the rest of the boys seem distant, I can't help but feel like they are keeping something important from me. I might be going crazy but it seems to have to do with my pregnancy. I remember when I first meet my kids, the oldest are twins, which I still have a hard time telling apart,James and Nathan 3 year olds, Anthony my 2 year old, and Alberta my 1 year old. They look so much like Jay, curly hair, infectious laughter, his clumsiness and his blue eyes,which I find adorable, except for Anthony he has brown eyes like me, they all have tan skin like me except for alberta she's as white as Jay.

I just got back from grocery shopping with the kids. Noticing Max's car parked in the garage along side Jay's, I told the kids to be quiet so we could surprise him. I gotta say even though I can't remember anything, I can't help but like and maybe even love him.

"Come on kids be very quiet, let's set everything down in here," I said as I set thing on the kitchen counter," and everyone look in different rooms quietly and whoever finds daddy first wins." They all smiled, eagerly nodding they ran off. I know its cheating but I pretty much already knew where they'd be. So I started walking towards the basement, which he had transformed into a small music studio.

I opened the door when I heard their voices, for some reason it seemed like they were arguing so I decide I was going to leave them, until..

"..Mate Juls is gonna find out sooner or later. And I suggest that you tell her its going to be better coming from you." Max harshly stated. What did I have to find out? I decided to stay and hear what was being said. I closed the door behind me and walked down a couple more steps so I could hear better.

"Mate but what if she leaves again. I don't think I'd be able to live with myself knowing I lost her again."

Jay POV

"..Mate Juls is gonna find out sooner or later. And I suggest that you tell her its going to be better coming from you." Max harshly stated.

"Mate but what if she leaves again. I don't think I'd be able to live with myself knowing I lost her again."

"Mate Jeremy is gonna be back soon. And if you don't tell her what happened, she's going to loose the little bit of faith she has in you. And run into his arms again." Again? Run into his arms? Well what's wrong were best friends right?

"I just want her to fall in love with me again before I tell her. It was hard enough for me when we had that argument the day she got hurt... Its all my fault. If I had paid more attention to her then she wouldn't of ran to him for love. If I was more understanding..."

*Memory*

Ju- 'I don't love you anymore Jay.' I yelled fiercely.

J- 'Juls don't do this to us, to the kids. We've been together for 4 years now.'

Ju- 'Yes Jay 4 years that have only taught me unhappiness, but he has brought that back into my life.' I harshly stated.

J- 'It looks to me like you've already made your mind up. It would've been less painful if you would've ran off and hadn't told me anything.' Tears were strolling down his face.

Ju- 'Well I wanted to give you a chance to say good bye to the kids.' Suddenly his tears of sorrow  became angry one.

J- 'No, If you want to leave you leave but you are NOT taking MY KIDS to live a harlot life!' Hurt cross my face but he didn't care about my feelings,I could tell he was past caring at the moment. I  went to grab Alberta, our youngest, he pushed me out of the way. 'You ARE NOT taking MY KIDS. LEAVE!' 

Ju- ' Can I at least give them a hug and a kiss?' I pleaded.

J- ' No LEAVE!' he said. I started to hear Anthony, our second youngest, crying. He turned around and picked him up and tried to calm him. I walked over and he hissed,' LEAVE You WHORE!' With that she ran out with tears in her eyes. I heard tires screech.Then something hit me sending pain  throughout all my body then I felt nothing.

*End Of Memory*

I shook my head, I then realized why he had tensed up when I had mentioned Jeremy, and he definitely wasn't my best friend, he was my lover?! I then heard the kids running around looking for me, I didn't want to listen anymore, I had heard enough. Yes I was hurt that Jay kept telling me how much he loved me but couldn't trust me. I had to find answers and I knew that Jay won't give me the honest answers I need. So I called the only person I knew that hated me enough to give me the answers I needed.

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Hello Darlings,

So what do you think? Who is Juls going to call? Will the answers she get make her run to or from Jay? What would you do in this situation? Let me know if there is anything you wish to see happen. Comment Vote and Follow me?!!? :) Til Next Time! 

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