For Your Smile - KimChay | FF

Chapter 14 - I like you!

For your smile by QUEENIKINI

"So... That's all ?

I turned to the voice I heard.

"Why? Did I made any mistake ? Was there anything me to do?

I asked looking at his face straightly.

I heard noises from inside the main hall.
It must be music club members. They must be cleaning the place.

I looked at his face again and brought back my eyes to my hands.

I thought it will be easy for me to avoid my feelings for him since he wasn't actually interest about me and we didn't have a thing.
But... now I know I really can't do that.

how can I ignore my own feelings?

My mouth felt dry and I felt my heart is hurting while looking at him.
I wanted to hug him and cry.
I want him to say,
'It's okay Porchay... I am here for you...!'

but how?
He will never know.
I float my eyes far away somewhere.

"No... You didn't.. You didn't make any mistake."
I heard his voice again.
Is he smiling at me...? am I seeing things now? am I that much sick?

"I... have something to say..."
He looked little stressed but still he tried to smile or curl his lips.

What now P Kim?
What is he going to tell me now?
I really want to go home.
I don't know what to do. Atleast I don't know how to tell everything to hia... or P Kim.
I just want to be alone for a while.

"P... Can we talk about it next time?
I should go now.."

"Porchay..."

I stepped towards the exit stairs but some words hit my head really hard.

"I like you!"

I stopped walking and just stay at there like an icon.

What...? What did he say...?
He What...?

"Actually I liked you from the beginning but... Some problems... you know..."

No.....
P Kim.... Please don't do this to me...

If I heard this few days ago, I could be over the moon. But...

Why now?
Tell me why now???

It is already damn years but why now...?

Why are you telling me now while I can't respond back you???

"Chay..."

I heard his steps towards me.

I'm sorry P....

I curled my fingers to palm and ran on the stairs to the exit without looking at him.

I hate this feelings.

I hate that I can't say him I like him too.

I hate this tears.

I hate everything that happen to me.

I stopped outside of the university and looked at those busy vehicle which going back and forth.

I am going to take a semester break and... going to find a job to raise some money.
I don't know if I can do it or not, But I don't need to be a burden to hia.
He already doing his best. No his bestest best.
I can't add my medical cost to him.

But still... I know it would be not enough for everything. But I should try right ?

And

I am going to tell about this Hia... tomorrow...