I Won't Dwell On Heaven's Calling (Black Veil Brides)

Chapter 14

I wasn't ready, was I? Don't be stupid, Hayley. He didn't ask you to be his girlfriend, he only kissed you. Anyway, it didn't matter. I'd just ignore him till the end of tour then go back to England. Moving to America was out of the question now.

Saying these thoughts to myself was one thing, but I needed to discuss all of this with someone else. I really wanted to talk with Andy but I lost that right. I didn't want to talk to CC or Ashley-however nice they were being- because they'd only tell Andy everything I said. That left only one option. I'd have to talk to my gay best friend.

I jumped off of the bed and locked the door. Ashley and CC had left me in the bedroom because I hadn't said a word for over half an hour. After finding Leo's number in my phone I sat back down my bed and waited for him to answer.

"Oh my goodness! Hayley, thank you so much for letting us meet BVB! If I wasn't with Leo I would SO run away with you!" I laughed when I realized that Luke-Leo's boyfriend- had answered Leo's phone.

"Hey!" Leo yelled.

"It's fine, Luke. It was my pleasure."

"But, Hayley! There is NO way that we could ever repay you! We've been wanting to meet BVB for years and you got us in for free!" Luke shouted.

"As much as I hate to admit it; he's right. How can we make it even?" Leo asked me.

"Well, you could meet up with me tomorrow? I really need a girl chat."

"Leo, Hayley Black wants to meet up with us! Oh my goodness! Of course we'll meet up with you, doll! Name the time and the place!" I laughed at Luke's hyperactivity.

"Meet me at 10AM outside my hotel, okay?"

"You'll tell us what's wrong tomorrow, won't you?" Leo asked quietly.

"Of course. Then when that's over we can do something fun." I smiled to myself as I thought about the following day. I could have a normal day without a bunch of rock stars trying to 'cheer me up'. Well, for a while, anyway.

"We'll see you tomorrow, okay? We love you!" Luke told me loudly. I laughed and said my goodbyes.

"Hayley, are you okay?" CC knocked on my door slightly. I sighed and went to unlock the door.

"Yea, I'm fine." I grinned. Leo and Luke could cheer me up easily. I must of looked terrible because Christian's eyes were full of concern.

"Who were you talking to?" he asked me with a suspicious look.

"Leo and Luke. You know, from after the concert?"

"Oh right, the gay cou-" He stooped talking mid sentence and thought for a second, "Hang on, why are you talking again?"

"Because I'm going to see them tomorrow. I'm gonna go to bed now, okay?" I smiled at him sweetly.

"Okay, Hayley. Have a good sleep." he ruffled my hair and walked back into the lounge. He would probably go to bed later.

I shut my door and walked into the room again, putting my phone on the bedside table. I changed into my batman pajamas which reminded me of Andy.

"Hey." Ashley had walked into my room without me realising. He waved at me slightly and smiled sadly.

"Hey, Ashley." he sat on my bed and looked at me strangely.

"I know that it's hard. I know that it's overwhelming. I just want you to be okay. Make sure you look after yourself, alright? If you need to talk, I'm here." I smiled at Ashley and he smiled back as he left my room. It was so nice that Ashley cared about me. To be honest, it was nice that anybody cared about me. It was different.

After I got comfortable in my bed and logged into my Twitter I saw a lot of tweets sent to both me and Andy. They all had a link attached to them. I clicked on the link to find a picture Andy kissing me. I was leaning towards him, it looked as if I enjoyed the kiss. Maybe I did? I looked at the picture again and realised that maybe being with Andy was a good idea... No, it wasn't a good idea. It was a terrible idea. My thoughts spun around my head as I discussed my issues with myself. I guess I sounded a bit insane.

I decided that I needed to sort out the situation on Twitter.

"@hayleyblack: Hey, guys! I just wanted you all to know that Andy and I aren't together. It's all just a misunderstanding. I hope you're all doing well! Xo"

A tear rolled down my cheek as I pressed 'Send'. I knew that I wasn't with Andy and that was my decision but sending that tweet still hurt like hell.