My Best Mistake (UNDER EDITING)

Chapter 5 - Nessa's POV

Crow should be here any minute to help me face Derek. I just don't know if I can do it. I wasted so many years with him. It just hurts so much. I feel like I'm dying, but I can't let him know that.

I took a shower, did my hair, and put on makeup. I can't let him know how much of a mess I really am. Now, all I need is a sexy dress to tie everything together. I decide on a sparkly, tight, green dress that compliments my skin and hair perfectly. I go look in the mirror. Damn, I look hot!

I hear a knock at the door. Shit! That better not be Derek. I doubt it is. He never shows up early for things. Hell, he barely ever showed up on time. I walk up to the door and look through the peephole. Thank goodness, it's Crow. I open the door and invite him inside.

"I'm so glad you're here. I seriously couldn't have done this without you," I say as I give Crow a hug.

"No problem, Nessie. I'm always here for you. What time is dickwad supposed to be here?"

"Any minute now. I'm terrified. How do I look," I ask as I do a little spin.

"You look great, Nessie. Stop worrying. He's going to realize what he's missing out on as soon as he sees you."

"Are you sure? I don't know if I can do this. It just hurts so much. I don't want to face him."

"I know, but it's just this once. Then, you never have to see or talk to him again."

"You're right. I can do this."

There's a knock at the door that makes my body stone cold. Derek. I really don't want to face him. Not after I just saw his face melted to another girl's just yesterday. The thought almost throws me into a panic attack. Crow puts his hand on my back to comfort me. It makes my anxiety melt away. I can do this.

I grab the box full of his things as Crow opens the door. I see Derek. He looks like a complete mess, probably just to make me feel sorry for him. I won't give in. I won't fall for his little mind games. It's over, we are done. I walk over to the door so I'm standing directly in front of him. Derek opens his arms as if he's asking for a hug. I scoff as I shove the box into his stomach.

"There's your stuff. You can leave now," I say coldly.

"Ness, don't be like that. Can we please just talk this out?"

"'Talk it out'," I laugh, "Talk it out? Are you fucking kidding me. How do you propose we 'talk out' five years of our relationship ruined, Derek? How do you want to 'talk out' you cheating on me after everything I've done for you!"

"Stop being such a fucking child, Ness."

"Leave. We're done. I never want to see or speak to you again."

I slam the door in his face and lock it. He continues to knock and talk through the door, but I ignore him. He doesn't get to say another word to me ever again. The thought makes me burst into tears. Crow takes me in his arms and walks me back to my bedroom. I just want to get into my pajamas, lay in bed, and cry until I fall asleep. I honestly thought Derek and I were going to get married. I guess, maybe, I dodged a bullet. It just feels like the bullet went straight through my heart.

Crow sets me down on the bed. He sits next to me and holds me as I cry. What did I ever do to deserve Crow? He's been by my side through everything. He's always been my best friend. Yeah, we've fought, but we never let that get in the way of our friendship. He's been the only person I could actually count on besides my mom.

"I'm going to let you get changed," Crow says as he stands up, "I'll get dickhead to leave if he hasn't already. Then, we'll watch a movie. How does that sound?"

"That sounds great. Thank you, Crow."

"Of course, Nessie."

Crow leaves my room. I get changed into one of his band tees I stole and some pajama shorts. I throw my hair into a messy bun. I go into the bathroom and look in the mirror. God, was Crow just not going to tell me I look like a literal raccoon? Asshole. I wash off what's left of my makeup. I feel a thousand times better now. I don't have all that heavy shit weighing me down. I don't have to pretend to be somebody I'm not. I can just be me.

I go into the living room and see Crow laying on the couch. I lay down on top of him, making his chest my pillow. Crow and I used to be like this all the time until Derek came along. I get why he didn't like it, but I missed this. Crow knows how to comfort me better than anybody else.

He pulls a blanket over us before pressing play on the movie. I look to see that the movie he picked is Moana. It's one of my favorites. I'm glad he picked this one, because the chicken always makes me laugh. Crow rubs my back as the movie starts.

A little while into the movie, I start to get sleepy. Crow hasn't stopped rubbing my back or playing with my hair, so that definitely hasn't helped. I would fall asleep here, but I don't want to put Crow in that awkward situation. I start to get up and Crow pauses the movie.

"Is something wrong," he asks me.

"No, I'm just getting a little sleepy. I think I'm going to call it a night."

"Ah, okay. I'll let you get some rest, then."

"Thank you for helping me today. I really appreciate it."

"You don't have to thank me, Nessie. I'll always be here for you."

Crow gets up and ruffles my hair before walking towards the door. I follow him to give him a hug before he leaves.

"Call me if you need anything," he says, grabbing his keys.

"I will. Be careful on the way home."

"I will be. Goodnight, Nessie."

"Goodnight, Crow."